I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

havent been in the best of moods these two days. and i seriously need some bubble tea to lighten me up.

know what, im a disappointment. i know i owe it to you guys, but i wanna quit, right now. im sorry i cant live up to those expectations. call me a failure, a loser or whatsoever.

i never thought i would be like this. i thought that i would be able to brave everything and achieve what is expected of me. but no, i was wrong about myself, just as all you guys were wrong about me. all i am actually is but a little weak ugly duckling.

i was never meant to achieve much i guess.

well.. what the hell is wrong with me? i lost that passion i once had. i dread going to school, im skipping trainings, im cutting lessons, skipping school, and everything else. i just wanna rot and sleep and just not care about anything. im pathetic, im freaking useless. why not say, i just suck. i definitely believe so.

know what best friend, you werent there for me when i needed you so much. but well, i guess this is how things will be? so much for i love you, so much for i'll always be there for you. i guess its all bullshit.

leon teh, i have endless things to say to you. i just really wanna thank you for standing by me all this while. caring and being there regardless of any shit. it isnt easy being a best friend to me i know, and you are one, ever so fervently. thank you, really. i know you will always always be there for me. thanks for assuring me, for caring and all. thanks.

> like as if you will ever care.

i think i need to chill the freak out.

im a born loser.

kim, you just suck.