Way Back.




i took out the whole box of letters and diaries just now. suddenly felt like going through some old memories. realised i was one bastard girl after reading my diaries. hah ohwell. im really sorry for every hurt i ever caused.

andddd hey you. we really go wayyyy back dont we. hah i know you know it. from the special "zap" on the first day of orientation where you took my breath away that very instant when we looked into each others eyes and introduced ourselves. to a year and ten months later when everything came to a full closure because i left for good. eight months of almost plain silence from the day we knew each other because we were both so shy and thought that each other had someone else in mind. but love struck both of us unknowingly and so suddenly once again a few months later when we just started talking out of the blue. i guess it kind of revived the love huh. and we realised that we have actually liked each other all along. well i know you were upset when i went with someone else but i really dint think it was possible between us. and i never thought i would like you again actually, but somehow i did. thanks for waiting for me to get over that someone. its funny now that i look back upon it, like how this whole thing started and ended and would have been better if we had started talking right from day one. hah. im sorry for ever breaking your heart. and we both know that we had done each other wrong. so, truce right. hah. well. enough bout all that i guess. theyre all memories and i'll keep them close to my heart. hah. reading through your many letters made me smile like never before, and they made me miss. they reminded me of everything back then. all the times we had, all the happy and sad moments, and all your honeyed words kind of rushed back to me. remembering how you cared for me, how you were always worried and anxious about me, how you got upset over me rather often, and basically, how you loved me. youre one of the sweetest ever. thanks for ever being a part of me. you'll always be special, now and forever.

and alex leong, i laughed when i saw one of the letters, which you wrote "er zi", son in english on the cover. hahah and the letter was quite funny as you said "eh son. have you realised all my letters now are different. cause i use british council foolscap. classy right" hahah. alex leong, you know youre seriously the bestest best everrrrr to me (: thanks for everything mummy leong. i remember mother umah thomas! (: hahah.

i only read through a few letters. well i looked intently at the red heart-shaped box filled with letters kept inside the huge rectangular box printed with pink hearts. and i realised that i have quite a bit of letters. and uncountable number of straw hearts. and super alot of neoprints. hahah. and yunting, yknow i have all the letters that you wrote me when we were back in lower secondary. hahah. my lower sec bestfriend. we drifted when we moved to upper sec dint we. but im really so glad that we are close again now. im so glad that we are in the same class, really (:

all the good and the bad memories, they're what makes life interesting and worth living.

as quoted from jem, "if life throws you shit, praise God"
my cute bestfriend who has enrolled himself all alone into tp's culinary course. hahah. yknow i love you right jewel, no matter how retarded you are (:

they say that when one door closes, another opens.
i just closed the door on you,
and another door has already opened for you.
and i know that many more will open up for you.
you know how much i want the best for you, dont you.
let it go.

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anyway i know this is totally random and unrelated to all that ive been typing, but today was really fun (: how bout i was like please dont rain. and it rained first thing in the morning. and how bout i was so excited to do pe cause it was tennis. and i was still on mc but i still wanted to do pe and was super geared up for tennis. and charlotte went "today we cant do tennis" omg i just died. hahah yunting laughed at me until she teared. nice shit. hah. the way life makes fun of you. its kind of funny. but im glad that we played captains ball. i had so so so much fun because 80% of the time we were all laughing. hahah laughing at how we pass to each other, how cheenaman was a flying chinaman and how retarded fouls and penalties were given, how the guys kept secretly pushing each other and how we throw the ball to each other unknowingly and timothy not being able to throw a ball. and like omg, its just everything. hahahah it was really one hour spent laughing manz. hahah. cheenaman is one retard. you should see the way he shouts and runs for the ball. he only has eyes for the ball and nothing else. he banged into everyone while dashing for the ball and demonstrated flying chinaman(his special move) a couple of times which saw him smacking the ball out of court with a triumphant cry and at the same time almost knocking yunting down. hahah its funny how we kept shouting foul and everything. hah i was so tired from laughing i swear. and, i kinda sprained my finger while snatching the ball with timothy. hahah but nevermind. ahhh charles youre one funny man. hahah. i can still remember how hard everyone was laughing and all the comments and weird moves. especially charles' ballerina stunts. HAHAH. and how he accidentally kicked the ball! hahah! fun fun fun (: im gonna go for every double period pe from now on (:

and volleyball after that with yunting marc renhan royston charkoh yunyun yanling and mr lau was fun (: hahah. royston the pointkiller and ballpicker! hah i miss exercising really. i should go for trainings already man. since now ive got so much time all, i should right! hahah. had dessert with marc at holland after that. thanks for everything smelly one! [:

alright, this is a rather long post and im pretty tired today. and im hungry. just ordered macs. cant sleep till it comes, and of course after i eat. hah. alright shall end this post now.


flower flower, professor is here and will always be here! RGS B DIVISON (: