I love the way you love me

WHATWHATWHATSUP PEOPLE. im gonna blog proper! uhh from like 11th may. i doubt i can remember much ahah but i'll try. but FIRST, i wanna complain. MY FEET HURT LIKE CRAPZXZZXZX. ): cause on saturday i wore the stupid pair of super super pointed heels. and the heels are like 8.5 cm high. omg and i wore it from 9.45am to like almost 3 am. thats like 17 hours!! and i was really really dying very badly): and my feet still hurt now. -_-"and my whole body's achingggg zzz. HAHAH okay enough bout the whining. so so i shall bloggg now.

12th may monday
i went to watch netball after school! the match between hc and rj was damn exciting my heart was pounding like crazy i dont know why. hahah. dinner at suntec after that.

13th may tuesday
i really cant recall what i did. most probably went to school and went home after that. hahah shit my memory is damn bad omg. OH I REMEMBER. i went for lunch with titi azmi shawn michelle and audrey! shawn's some nice driver. hahah. i thought i was going to die yknow. then went back to school and hung around with denise for pretty long before heading to the library to find tingali and jobasan. i disturbed them and they dint study much for their test. sorry! hahah. then after that shawn titi azmi lugman and i went to ccab to watch hockey! smelly one heard me cheering for him! i must be quite loud eh hahah. then i went back home after that.

14th may wednesday
went to school and i actually went for lit. hahah. and like my classmates were rather shocked. hahah. but the teacher dint come so it was an hour of free period. so joshua and i just sat there talking for bout an hour. and then we started talking bout our secondary school days and i was damn shocked when he mentioned bout s.a.m. i was like... i thought nobody knew.. hahah but turns out that he knew about it. so i told him a bit more and like we talked bout other stuff back then and now too. hahah quite a good catch up. [:

after school, met up with denise and we took the bus down to hougang. watched the netball semis with reena and xian (: we owned :D glad i saw reena and xian! havent seen them sinceeee like damn long ago! hahah. reena and i were talking bout giving a gift to someone who was really of much help. hahah. went to hug my alliances and tt after that and my whole uniform became wet. FATTY YOU LAH. hahahah. after that, took a cab with denise wanqi bala and marklui. we dropped off at hc and there were like some hc people there. so denise and i were like "HUH WHAT, AC WON HC NETBALL 82-51? WHAT ? THRASHING AH" HAHAHA we were damn assholes lah.

took 157 home after that.

15th may thursday
went back home straight after school. slept for abit before the sillyone came over for awhile after his lesson.

16th may friday
after school. marc pakkee denise and i went up the first bus to toapayoh sports hall but i think we ended up one of the last buses to reach. stupid uncle went to tour around singapore ah hahah. okay so watched the netball finals with denise reena xian shu and royston. how bout there was this girl who was standing up and jumping on the bench in front of us and i was like "TSK SIT DOWN MAYBE" and then she was still happily jumping. and then ROYSTON SHOUTED "OI! SIT DOWN LAH" omg damn scary HAHAHAH. and the girl really sat down. hahah. hmm. random but i love yall alliances :D hope yall like the banners! yall are my number one! :D okay share lah both also number one okay. TT's my number two! :D

after the game, took some photos then left for town. went marks and spencer shopping! hahah and bought like 50 bucks of food :D champion right. thanks to the strong man who helped me carry all the barang barang hahah. ate at bk and then walked around and went back like around 7 plus 8.

17th may saturday
went over to uglycalves' place in the evening for awhile before his mum fetched us to cathay to buy movie tickets and then to toapayoh for the nsl finals. nsl finals was okay i guess. after that went to town and caught what happens in vegas. OMG CAMERDON DIAZ IS HOTTTTTTTTSTUFFFFFFFF. she is super mega hot :D i like! and the movie's good! (: hahah. went back home after the movie.

18th may sunday
pandhi came over in the afternoon. then we went for dinner at jec with jaclyn and bensong. hahah it was a pretty good time. then jaclyn and i decided to go to st james to look around. hahah. on a sunday night. so like jaclyn and i were both nicely dressed in school shirts and fbts and havis. HAHAH. and ben was in some sports attire. only pandhi was properly dressed in tshirt and jeans. hahah the guys were quite reluctant to go but after much persuasion and flipping of coins, we hopped onto a cab and we went to st james. hahah pandhi was pretty scared it was quite funny. hahah. jaclyn and i isolated ourselves from them and kept asking them to go and stand at some place themselves. we were trying to see if anyone would hit on them. well apparently, pandhi pops got many stares and glances and weird smiles from many people. hahha. whey whey. hahah. and guess who i saw there? hahah.

we stayed there for quite awhile and we all stinked cause of the smoke -_-" hahah jaclyn and i cabbed with the guys and then dropped somewhere and took nightrider home.

19th may monday
woke up to some nice message of the conman who told me that his legs were aching and he had a headache and he broke some bone. hahah idiot man. so i went over to his place and his place was filled with relatives i got a lil bit of shock when i stepped in cause everyone looked at me. hahah. so in the end, it turns out that the conman has a broken bone in his head. HAHAH no lah. stayed for a short while and left for town. realised that i lost my wallet omg. but managed to contact toapayoh bus interchange and they had my wallet there. met up with royston at somerset and he lent me cash to take train. to toapayoh we went and yay my wallet, with everything intact. im really lucky! so then we walked around the whole place hoping to find a starbucks cause i was really craving for coffee frappuccino. and the sad truth was that theres no starbucks. and we walked for vehhhh long. in the end we settled down at delifrance. the whole time we were there, i did my time table, which consists of some lines, boxes and a few numbers. hahah shit damn loser. titi came after that and bought us redbull. we migrated to subway after awhile. and i did a few math questions. not bad right. hahah. then we left subway and walked around. my two brothers waited with me for my mum to come pick me up. thanks (: we came up with some lame handshake and stuff hahah. quite funny. so mummy came and pick me up and homeee we went.

20th may tuesday
school school school. during one of the breaks, marc and i went to the library. that smelly one slept while paul hong showed me funny videos on his ipod touch. hahah. after that, mr ong fetch yini denise shuqi and i to jalan besar. we walked damn mother far to get to the ulu macs. yini and i were complaining like mad and denise kept laughing at us. you have noooooo idea how hot it was omg. hahah i bought fries with maple syrup. honey fries pandhi! hahah. then we took a cab back to the stadium. the cab fare was 2.80. hahah! so met up with yunting and joanne. then joshua came. then ian came to find me. then alliances and other people came. hahah it was quite a fun time except that there was no cheering at all manz. hahah and our boys won (: yay! hahah.

after the match. jiazhi celeste denise shuqi and i were desperately trying to get a cab. hahah we were like trying to hitch rides from all the lorry drivers and motorcyclists. hahah. it was damn funny. then in the end we realised that lavender mrt was within walking distance. hahha. so took a train backkkk.

21st may wednesday
school againz. after school, had to go for some napfa talk. like what the. maybe i dint fail napfa. i dint even take okay. hahah so i walked into the LT, saw mr ong and said "im taking napfa when school reopens. can i dont attend the talk" and then he let me go. hahah yay so skipped the talk! took 198 with denise. she went to the library while i went home.

22nd may thursday
truefriend wanted to go to school together with me but hahah i dint go to school. sorry you ass! i was sleeping very soundly till like around 9 am, my mum burst into my room and told me that cocoapops was at my door. hahah i was damn shocked! hahah, yay very sweet of him to surprise me early in the morning (: hahah. i like being able to see him early in the morning and then being able to spend the rest of the day with him :D although it means that we both get quite sleepy cause its so early hahah. he stayed till about 8 and had dinner before going back. glad i got to spend the day with him [:

23rd may friday
that fatpig overslept hahah. but we still managed to meet at around 10 at vivo. so breakfast at ljs. then went to the arcade for abit before taking the train into sentosa. we went to the palawan amphitheatre cause i wanted to watch the animal show. hahah. but in the end it was the close encounter session. so we got to be close with the iguana. it dint look very happy. HAHAH. then the person that "zookeeper" person kept saying the iguana is very pretty. hahah. okay so so after that we went to dolphin lagoon to buy tickets before heading towards the tower thing. then we went for the dolphin show. hahah when shuhui started talking, i laughed at her. HAHAH. okay damn bad. i was supposed to volunteer to touch the dolphins. but in the end i dint. hahah sorrryyyy shuuuu. but he got to go into the water till chest level to play with the dolphins! hahah the dolphin kissed him! hahah very cute. hahah. and i dint know that fatass is so good at hoolahoop. hahah.

so after that we went to tan for like awhile. he tanned for like 30minutes or so, and i tanned for like maybe 10 minutes only. hahah. but enough to see my name tanned onto my arm! hahah and he tanned my name onto his arm also and it was like damn obvious. hahah (: very sweeeeeeet of him :D after that, we made our way to underwater world! hahah we went to the touch pool to play with the fish. i was quite scared that the archerfish would spit water at my face like what it did to shuhui the loser. hahha. but very nicely, the archerfish dint. then i told him to flip the starfish upside down. hahahah. quite funny. then we went to the stingray pool. they are rather violent anyhow swim and anyhow splash water. hahah but theyre like damn smooth to touch. and they have a pair of fake eyes damn cool! but they look rather fierce hahah. so we went around looking at all the sea creatures. the seaweed seahorse thing is amazing man. its just like seaweed. hahah a seahorse with seaweed growing on it. how cool. hahah. and then we saw the sea angels damn cute! hahah i shall post a video of them swimming! hahah. saw quite alot of funny fish. hahah it was quite fun.

then after that we went to siloso beach for awhile before making our way back to the towers at palawan to watch the sunset. then we went to the skyride and luge! hahah damn fun. how bout the skyride dood was like "eh its getting dark. yall know what to do ah" then we both just ignored him cause we dint know he was talking to us. then he went "brother. its getting dark. you know what to do right" -_-" what the hell. nice shit. hahah. the view up there was pretty good. hahah. so we got off the skyride then we went for pure chocolate at coffeebean before going for the luge. hahah i love the luge! damn exciting and damn fun. hahah. but it ended too quickly. hahah so after that we left sentosa. i wanted to go to the merlion walk! it looked so pretty! hahah but there wasnt enough time. hahah and we took so many photos my camera was flat. luckily he had his camera hahah.

so like while we were on the train, we kept calling each other names hahah it was quite funny. then i tried to run away from him and he was like going up the escalator so i had to climb the stairs. and he kept walking downwards so that i have no chance to go up the escalator. so in the end, i climbed the whole flight of stairs. hahah what an idiot. then we kept walking away from each other ahahah. so we went for dinner. we sat there discussing bout nursery rhymes hahah. have you realised they're all evil in nature. like london bridge is falling down, baa baa black sheep's wool got taken away, humpty dumpty was broken, jack and jill fell down, etc. hahah. then we went to buy food and both our trays had soup on them. so i said like hes damn lousy always spill his soup so we competed to see who can get back to our seats first without spilling the soup. hahah in the end, we both spilled quite alot. hahah. okay fine, he won cause he got back first. he cheated! hahah kiddingggg. dinner was pretty alright. the view from our seats was quite good. hahah.

it was an awesome day although we were both quite lethargic for a period of time cause it was so damn mother hot. hahha. and we took like almost 400 photos! hahah. well, i just really loved the day (:

left to meet marc and his cell group for games at settlers. haha it was a pretty fun time. his cell group members are quite funny. hahah. so left settlers at around 12 and got a lift to serene there. marc walked me to my bus stop and then my bus came right away. thanks smelly one!

24th may saturday
went to study for abit at tanglin mall before meeting marc and friends at ps for gelare. caught made of honour at cathay. and then had dinner at ps. then cabbed to marc's house after that. cookie's damn cute! but quite smelly hahah. i spent the whole time playing with cookie while the rest were playing pool. hahah. so then we watched zoolander. hahah quite a funny show. left at around 12 and marc's brother dropped me at serene's bus stop and i went back.

25th may sunday
was supposed to meet my brothers and the pig god at 1 at tanglin mall. how bout i woke up at like 12 plus. and in the end I WAS STILL THE FIRST TO REACH. idiots ah. haha pig god was number two then brother T and finally the loser. dint study at all the whole afternoon. hahha. we were all just talking and stuff. at least the three of them did a bit of work. i did zilch manz. ohwell. hahah. so cabbed to novena there for dinner. royston the loser went off. while titi and i had dinner and talked about manyyy things. left at 10 plus. took a cab and dropped titi off before heading to pandhi's place to surprise him for the first time. hah the look on his face when i opened his room door was priceless. stayed for a pretty short while and headed home soon after.

26th may monday
went to school for bio lecture at 12. omg the lecture was 3 hours long i was dyingggg. thank God for pakkee's fruitips. hahah. after the lecture, cabbed to marc's house with pakkee and marc. lazed around for abit before going out for awhile and then meeting them back at serene's at 630. got icecream and drinks and a cake and marc's mum fetched us to joanne's place. 2SD2's party! hahah there were only 10/14 people present. amanda eliza charles and jeremy dint come. hahah. but anyway the food was goooood. ahaha after dinner, some played monopoly while the rest played indian poker. we drew on each other's faces like free one lah seriously HAHAH. timothy got it like the worst! hahah damn funny. we all laughed like mad manz. hahah. and i had difficulty washing off the ink from my face and i nearly panicked. hahah. but in the end i managed to wash them off. celebrated jingwen's birthday and then alot of people went off. leaving marc yunting joanne and i. so we attempted to play cards and then we went to play foosball. hahah whoever lets in a goal had to drink beer. and the beer tasted damn bad lah seriously. hahah. marc's mum came and picked him up and she dropped yunting and i off at some bus stop and we took bus back.

27th may tuesday
gave lecture a miss. somebody came over for abit while i was having breakfast. ahah and my mum was damn retarded. then we left for railmall to study. i spent the whole time sleeping till marc called. then we went to walk around and tried to find fruitypebbles cause he wanted to eat them. but they were out of stock. so we decided to go to subway for lunch. and all our stuff were at coffeebean. somemore the cushion seats. hahah. quite bad right we hogged the seats for so long with our belongings. hah. while eating halfway we decided that we might as well move over to subway. so he went to get the stuff. hahah and you know he looked damn cool while walking towards subway. and then he walked walked walked and he overshot. HAHAHAH omg i was laughing at him lah. then i waited for awhile before he reappeared at the door laughing also. HAHAH. we sat there for quite awhile and decided that we should go off. so we went to rent ps.iloveyou and sweeney todd before heading over to his place. ate dinner and then we watched ps.iloveyou. and he started acting like an irish. hahah. stayed at his place till quite late before taking a cab back.

28th may wednesday
went over to somebody's house at near 4 and caught sweeney todd but we dint manage to finish the show. and then i left for home at 630.

29th may thursday
slept in for very long. and then went out in the evening to centrepoint to meet the fairfield people for dinner. evan, mel, jiayi, kh, josh, esmonde, yao and clarence. ichiban boshi for dinner. then stayed there and gossiped like mad hahah it was damn funny. some people left while the rest of us went to macs and gossiped somemore. hahahah. shit i kept remembering what mel exclaimed very loudly during dinner and how joshua kept calling this girl "bignostrilsgirl" hahah. rather funny. many many gossips that we shared. from school to school hahah quite a funny time. left at 11 and kh and clarence tempted me to take cab with them ): and i gave in to the temptation. hahah. shit manz.

30th may friday
somebody came over at around 1 plus and we caught sweeney todd and cj7 with my retard brother. hahah. and he got me a lgm from the arcade. hahah i was surprised and touched cause while i was sleeping comfortably in bed he was actually catching the lgm for me. hahah. thanks (: left at around 6 plus to meet pinli the flower. so met up with pinli and we went to timbre. had to queue for quite long. pizza it was for us and we talked for quite awhile. the band took like years to set up i swear. we were so fed up with waiting! hahah in the end pinli took his bag and just walked away when the guys were already on stage ready to play man. hahah. what the hell. so we went to 7-11 and then got ourselves some drinks. then we headed home. took 171 then pinli alighted with me. saw charkoh at the bus stop hahah. then i took 157 back home.

31st may saturday
was supposed to have breakfast with the people(kh, jiayi, alex, evan and choo) but i woke up at 915 when we were supposed to meet at 915. HAHAH so sorryyyy. how bout i cabbed there and i got there at 1030. nice they were paying already. hahah took a bus with them down to the church and met up with the rest. so it was miss liang and mr tan's wedding! hahah sneaky eh the two of them. like back in sec three, we always teased them and then they kept denying and stuff and now, MARRIED ALREADY. hahah. and they've dated for two years plus hahah. they look very cute and sweet together. [: the food there was not bad. took some photos and then joshua mel yunxing and i cabbed to town. my heels were killing me from the moment i stepped out of the house. -_-" so yunxing and joshua went home while mel and i went to walk around in plazasing. she accompanied me till cocoapops came to find me! thanksss. hahah. cocoapops and i went for icecream at gelare and then we went to buy some stuff at carrefour before watching narnia at 350. the movie ended at like 6 plus and we were like SHIT. hahah anyway the movie's quite nice! hahah. so cocoapops and i took a train to commonwealth and we took a cab to school cause i dint want to walk. hahah. so i met up with my classmates for restless. hahah it was not bad. quite cool. the dancers are damn hot and cool man. hahah.

after restless, i insisted on taking a cab to holland. hahah. sorry classmates. my feet were really dying. so like we went for dinner at the hawker centre. pakkee elson timothy jeremy charles jingwen carina and shuqi. after dinner pakkee and i went to disturb marc. hahah. truefriend was there too and that bastard kept trying to get me to go back home together with him. he kept dissuading me from going to town and kept saying that i pangseh!! maybe i didnt! idiot. hahah and hes like "like that you call true friend ah. true friends dont pangseh each other!" -_-" slap you ah idiot hahah. so like walked with pakkee out of holland before taking a cab to paragon. and then met up with a bunch of people. not bad a time. hahah. left at around 140 and went to take nightrider. the bus was so freaking cold they think aircon dont need electricity to run wan i think. hahah. got home near three. packed my stuff and was on the phone till 4 plus. and slept at 5. and i took 5 cabs in a day -_-" i am so brokeeeeeee ):

1st june sunday
woke up at 915. couldnt find my games day shirt. nice, yet another shirt lost ): zzz. so mummy fetched mrfiercesome and i to serangoon. we went for breakfast at some hawker centre where we talked about us during march and april last year. we actually liked each other back then but nothing happened. i dint even know that he liked me then. and i was telling him bout how much he affected me and all and he felt very bad. hahah. so then we went to macs. then we walked around the place. went to frolick after that. the frolick there is very pretty i shall post some pictures of it. hahah. and mrfiercesome flirted with the girls there HAHAH okay lah he never. then to sushi tei for lunch. how bout when we were about to start eating. we received a call that cal's brother was coming to fetch us already. hahah nice shit we were like rushing lah. shortest meal ever in a restaurant manz. hahah. and mrfiercesome wanted to keep the salmon roe in his mouth to hatch some baby salmons HAHAH. next time i buy you one whole packet okay then you slowly hatch hahah. i swear we are so retarded really but i guess thats why its always fun to be with him (: so to plmgs we went. played captains ball. it was pretty okay i guess. im so unfit i played like shit ohwell. hahah. anyway mrfiercesome was damn fierce! HAHAH i was rather shocked but it was very nice of him (: like there was this guy who was quite rough and stuff and he pushed me and all. and mrfiercesome grabbed the guy's arm and said EH DUDE CAN YOU RELAX. and he sounded very very fierce ahahah. mrfiercesome how cool HAHAH. thanks :D so after that, mummy came to pick me and gave them a lift to cityhall. how bout mummy kept talking rubbish in the car, the both of them were like laughing behind. -_-" hahah. ohwell, thats my mum. so back home. and then we had family dinner. cause uncle's girlfriend's parents wanted to come over to taste my grandma's cooking. so my grandma cooked a twelve-course dinner. hahah like what the. dinner was alright i guess. after dinner, showered and stuff and used the computer till 2 plus am before crashing.

2nd june monday
woke up at 2pm. and was late to meet joanne and yunting. again. hahah sorry. i was almost an hour late. met them at bugis village and we walked around. thanks for the presents jo! she bought me some cool necklace and a lgm keychain! :D hahah so, bought some stuff. then headed over to bugis junction and walked around more. before hamster came and walked around with us. i had this feeling that he might wear a cap and he did! hahah. the first thing yunting said to him was WHY YOU COME ITS A GIRLS OUTING. HAHAH. jo and yunting left at 630 and hamster and i went to mos burger for dinner. we ordered like quite alot of stuff man. like.. 2 sets of teriyaki chicken burger meal upsized, clam chowder, 2 mos chicken, 1 plain dog. hahah we sat there for like quite a long time. then we walked around the place. it was like damn freakinggg cold we decided to get out of the place. we walked to arab and then to haji then sat at raffles hospital foodcourt then we walked to cityhall, walked around chijmes and then wanted to walk to boat quay there. hahah crazy walked damn alot lah. hahah. in the end we decided that we shall go back. so managed to catch my last bus home. came home and was on the phone with him and we actually had a competition to see who bathe faster. winner will leave a missed call on the loser's cell. how bout i came out of the bathroom and my phone was on the floor. vibrate until drop on the ground lah. hahah what the. wahlao i cant believe i lost zzz. hahah. YOU CHEAT RIGHT. hahah anddd i love the day (: and brotherT is one funny boy hahah. used the com till around 4 plus and i slept at 5am.

3rd june tuesday
plans to study and have gelare were cancelled. im sorry. woke up at 12 plus cause marc called. then went back to sleep till 4 plus. till pandhi called. then went back to sleep at 630 till about 9. i slept like the whole day away. but im glad i did. sleeping's indeed the best remedy. and my throat hurtssss really bad. like its never hurt so bad before. ugh.

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DENISE CHONG:
WHAT DO YOU THINK I SHOULD LET THEM AUTOGRAPH?
ME:
tattoo on your face :)
DENISE CHONG:
GOSH!!! I ALSO WANT. ON MY BREASTS PLEASE. HAHAHA KIDDING

whats this denise. HAHAHA
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sometimes i dont know why im the way i am, sometimes i think im really ridiculous. maybe i really am. and im so headstrong and spiteful and prideful and everything i think im really.. i dont know. im really bad. and i really feel like im the worst person to be with ever. and now, im questioning something that i shouldnt be. im questioning something that i should be damn sure of. im questioning something that is unquestionable actually. because the answer is so very obvious and real and evident. i dont know why and im sorry.

i remember that day at cityhall. at that bus stop. at 6 in the morning,
you whispered "i love you" into my ears
i was silent for awhile before replying "really?"
then you smiled very sweetly and said"yes"
i smiled and asked you "how much?"
you lifted me off the ground, kissed me and said "this much"

that moment was perfect.

everything that you've said and done for me is proof of your love. and im thankful for a love so deep and unconditional. thanks for loving me despite my million and one imperfections and ills. thanks for loving me although im so horrid to you. thanks for always caring and holding on. thanks for always giving in and assuring me and pacifying me even though you're upset too. thanks for always reassuring me when you wish that i'll reassure you for once but i dont. thanks for always being so nice to me. thanks for all the surprises and everything sweet. thanks for always listening to all my nonsense and hearing all my complains. thanks for always being the one clearing things up when im the one at fault. thanks for always taking the initiative although sometimes you wish that i will too but i dont. thanks for always making me smile and laugh. thanks for always smiling. thanks for always being there. thanks for being so understanding. thanks for always making me feel so loved and important. thanks for always telling me how much i mean to you and how much you love me. thanks for loving me for who i am.
thank you, for you.

and im really sorry for everything. i know i never ever take the initiative to message or call you. and if i never remember wrongly, i've only messaged or called you first once. and i dont even take the initiative to apologize or clear things up when im the one who's in the wrong. and you uncomplainingly message me every single day and call me almost every night when you actually wish that i'll take the initiative sometimes. im sorry im so selfish and youre always the one giving and not receiving. and you uncomplainingly love me although its tough and when im really such an ass to you. im sorry for being so prideful and spiteful and hurtful and im really sorry for all the times i've made you sad.

you're really a gift from God. definitely the best gift ever.

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this post is so weird. i typed it on sunday actually and i kept editting it everyday and some parts really sound damn off because they dont really tally with the emotions on the whole. but aiyah. whatever.

breakfast and studying with brother tomorrow and icecream at island creamery with marc later on and maybe phuture with jz, cel, xian, and viv at night.

okay i need to do something bout my throat. its really bad. omg somemore we're gonna eat prata for breakfast. -_-" hah. alright this post is rather long. i shall end here. goodnightz.