i havent really blogged in a long time. so since i have time. i'll try to blog. hah.

SUNDAY
went out with esmonde in the afternoon. to novena for his volcom jacket. and oops, i bought 2 fila polo tees (: and one fila tee for my brother (: so yeah. got his jacket and all. i really wanted to get this ripcurl bag but i didnt. so yeah. then we went to bugis. got my denim shorts and another limited edition tee. got a bracelet too. ohyeah, and two pairs of earrings. hah. i spent like 850 bucks in 3 weeks. die man. dinner at fish&co was pretty nice. seafood platter for two (: i was so damnit full. and i wanted to drink sharkie freeze so much lah! DAMN. hah. i like the clam chowder (: and there were three birthday babies in the house. hah.

MONDAY
went to fairfield to pass ahma lizhen her present. then yeah. went into the toilet. this girl looked at me and said "your ear will get CATCH leh" then i was like going to laugh but i dint. so i just said that i wasnt in the school already then she went "so malu!" hah shes so funny. school was as usual. can you believe it, a class of freaking 11 or below pointers are scared about their olevels results. like HELLO, im twenty lah can.

anyway, was smsing peter during assembly. it was damn funny. "wahlao. this is damn lame. i can see you lah" then peter stood up, pretended to stretch, saw me and laughed. hah that pandhi. anyway i pon class pon until i dont know anything. i cant answer all the questions that were shot at me lah. damnit. miss low asked us to do some quiz thing. when i gave her my paper, she looked darn terrified, then she read my answers first. hah.

we are playing some secret valentine game. something like angel and mortal. then its like -_-" i was thinking who i want to pick, i was thinking DONT WANT this person. then i got him lah! WAHLAO! but anyway, we reshuffled. so then i was like. okay i want that person. and i got him! HAHAH. scary right. last time also. i was thinking, "okay cedric lah" and i got him. then they wanted to reshuffle! then i was like piang eh, sure cannot get dricee already cause i was the second last person to draw. and i got cedric lah! HAHAH.

anyway my class is damn scary can. they know the answers to everything lah! hah anyway my mummy is damn nice (: i cut school and tahah, went for the juniors match. they won (: so yupp. went back to ac for some dsa/appeal talk. mrs kelvyna chan is damnnnnnnnn nice lah. seriously, DAMNNNN nice. hahah. so yeah. and brandy lai is damn cute (: tahah. anyway, miss low is quite nice lah. hah. didn go for training. was really sick and tired of stuff. ohwell.

TUESDAY
didnt go to school. so yeah. went to jjc to find xinyi. met xiangyuan, rosalind, joanne, jerry and qihui. and that made me really happy. i really miss them alot. but at the same time, i was damn sad. ohwell. yeeleen drove xinyi and i down to fairfield. so yeah played against the bdiv. i so suck man i tell you. well. met senior angela and people. chatted a fair bit with her. got my yummies and went home with xinyi.

WEDNESDAY
went to school. was nearly late tho i woke up earlier than usual -_-" so yeah. bio pract was up first. i was really quiet. and i felt so much like crying. chem was next. thank you jasvin for helping me do my work. had to copy chem. rushed like shit lah. but in the end thank god i didnt have to hand it in as yet. im damn bullshit lah i think. hah. i think my class thinks so too. i was damn kanchiong lah. copy until like pangsai. somemore must recopy math cause jasvin's handwriting was super not like mine. hah

math was next. brandy lai was as usual, super cute. hah. we kept laughing lah. then he took my paper and i pointed my 4th finger at him! hahah. that stupid boy. and i sat beside a genius who knows everything. shes crazy. like really.

hmm i dont know whats up next. i cant remember. hah. heck. i know during pccg, we had a discussion about valentines day. i wanted secret recipe's cake! and some wanted awfully choc! awfully choc is not say damn nice what. hah. anyway, more people supported my idea! YAY! hahah. they say that im damn smart -_-" hell bullshit. anyway did i mention that ac's students council is really creative? love ACtually. hah. and their project all must go video is super cool! hahah. actually all the ccas are damn creative lah! hah

hmm so after school. went to the all must go sale. hah. so got a notebook and a tee. went back to fairfield for awhile. was really dreading training. and i nearly broke down in front of kong they all. ohwell. went back to ac. was really like so.. i dont know. well. ran 1.2 km as usual. im happy with my timing. like really. well. so training wasnt so bad. i talked alot i dont know why. told them about corny pick up lines like "my name is jing wan, you can call me tonight"

hah. weights and drills and stuff. pretty okay. talked alot with hui shian and eden (: yeah. went to the cafe with like ten netballers after training. it was pretty fun. yeah had to go off soon after. didn shower, just changed. i was damn shocked when i came out of the toilet. i saw yuquan! hah. and then i met him at the bus stop also. so we talked and talked. and we both so happened to have to go to tiong! tahah. its really nice talking to him (:

so met up with esmonde and kengheng (: had dinner. and we watched gridiron gang. nice! hah. then yeah, reached home at around 1am. it was a pretty good night (;

TODAY
dint go school again -_-" went to school at around 12. to pass yuxuan his homework. pangsai, i didn even copy. damnit. die already man. anyway yuxuan is a damn nice guy lah! so then i was comtemplating as to if i should go to school. i didnt in the end, i went to pjc. it was a treacherous journey. i took five buses lah! hah thank god i have concession! hah. hmm so went into pjc. its pretty okay. saw a few familiar faces. ying thong, edwin, stanley. hah i wanted to eat the apple lattice but i had to wait. so i ate the peach tart instead. its pretty good. left pj at about 3. we went back to fairfield. went to find miss yeo, had a good talk with her (: then i went to find the netballers. yeah. it was a pretty good time talking to them and all. had a chat with shaun wai also. then went off at around 6. and so coincidentally, i had to see him when i was walking out.

anyway, i have a dare to complete tomorrow. im supposed to go up to my eyecandy and say "my name is jingwan, you can call me tonight"

> KENGHENG! thanks for the two bars of switzerland chocs! (:

> bestfriend. i no longer know what to say to you. i am sad too. i really am. ohwell


`And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to

> i never expected it. but now that i know, i just have to accept it. at the end of it all. youre still not who they made you out to be. and i must have been a fool to have even tried believing them.
/ ten days. i just need ten days.

; theres so much i cant say