Monday, February 26, 2007

DHT> i go crazy

hello boy it's been a while
guess you'll be glad to know
that i've learned how to laugh and smile
getting over you was slow
they say old lovers can be good friends
but i never thought i'd really see you
i'd really see you again

i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
no my heart just can't hold that feeling inside
way deep down inside
oh baby you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy

you say she satisfies your mind
tells you all of her dreams
i know how much that means to you
i realize that i was blind
just when i thought i was over you
i see your face and it just ain't true
no it just ain't true

i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
that old flame comes alive
it's starts burning inside
way deep down inside
oh baby
you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy

i go crazy
you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy
no my heart just can't hide
that old feeling inside
way deep down inside
i go crazy
you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy


crazy

Sunday, February 25, 2007

HELLO!

i have been blogging lesser and lesser. and thinking of all that i want to post, i dont feel like posting anymore. so basically i'll keep it really short, I HOPE. hahah

so i shall start frommmm sunday!

err what did i do last sunday.. OH i was at home rotting. my bro and uncle and me were watching some show on channel five. cause granny was sick and so all of us stayed home. then suddenly that ass decided that she want to go to her mum's place. so we all rushed and got changed. uncle drove bro and her there then the two of us went to the other great grand's house. played cards and mahjong and i lost twenty bucks. damn.

hah then i received a call. went to meet daniel, ben, ken, ted and ryan. hah met christina, mel swee, chester, jem, leon, ken, benben blah. tahah. to meridien for pool. met petey there! hahah that ass. back to cine to watch ghostrider at 12.50. pretty alright. not too baddd.

then after that we cabbed to ken's place. ken cooked smoked salmon and scrambled eggs for us! super nice! i helped him cook! hahah. then we watch hellboy and i nearly fell asleep. left his place at around 5 am and we cabbed home.

MONDAY
went to dont know my second grand aunts place. then had lunch there. after that went to err, the other second grand aunts place. okay im damn bad at the names lah okay. hahah. so then played cards and all. i lost a little ): tahah

then after that, went to my great grand's place. played cards and all. they said that i look like im sec two! like hell no! hahah. after that went to jec. no movies to catch. so we went to jp. okay i was with my uncle and his fiancee and my bro. we caught just follow law at jp at 1am. mccafe before there was nice. iced choc and apple crumble (: yumm. the movie was pretty nice. quite funny. i think muthu is freaking funny! hahah

TUESDAY
the relatives came to my house. i woke up so late. woke up, washed up and got pulled to be the dealer for blackjack. i won 15 bucks with 0 to begin with (: yayy. after that went to my fifth grand aunts place. played mahjong and i lost badly! hahah after that went home and change. then went to clementi to meet esmonde. cabbed to kengheng's house with him. i super love kengheng's house! (:

it was pretty fun. with cedric that joker as the main chef. the food was pretty good. the company was great too. had pretty much fun (: bussed home with ian after that (: (:

WEDNESDAY
went to school despite my utmost reluctance to wake up. hah. so school was pretty alright. learnt about lupus during pccg. its so damn scary lah! then the ladies who were presenting cried! damn poor thing lah.

after that had training. I HATE TRAINING. I HATE HATE HATE TRAINING. fullstop. I WANT TO QUIT NETBALL.

ISLAND CREAMERY with amanda (: after that. it was a pretty good time, as usual (: reversO and kahlua latte and apple pie <3.>THURSDAY
met kengheng in the train at clementi. trained to pasir ris. went to get stuff and ordered the bbq stuff. bought water rise chic wings and chicken potato and jap lemon tea (: loveeee. met up with esmonde after that. went to pasir ris. left our stuff at the counter and went to walk around. esmonde had lunch with his mum and kengheng and i went to the arcade. hahah we were playing some candy machine! and we spent seven bucks on it! its so addictive lah! hahah

then after that we checked in and all. jiayi came. so we played bridge. after that we went out again. we went to the damn candy machine again! hahah then ven came. we spent like 70 bucks this time round! we got a whole damn bag heavy with candies and pockies! HAHAH. its super dumb and yet its so addictive know!

tahah so then we had subway. went back to the chalet after that. forgot what we did. watched tv and all. after that yunxing lissa dricee and ian came and ven went off. so the eight of us went to the arcade again. played the basketball game and all. dricee tried catching chip for me but he failed pathetically. HAHAH it was super funny lah. he actually did some thing that i think no one ever could. hahah

so then after that we went to play mushroom! a ian invented game! hahah it was damn fun lah! after that we went back to the chalet. played cards and all. kenneth ong alex and yao crashed our chalet. hahah. yupp. im their lucky charm! (:

tahah played poker with all the sweets that we had. super funny. i won every round of poker! then they were all like bankrupt and in debt! then they kicked me out of the game! ): hahah damn idiotic lah. no lah actually i quitted. i slept after that. tahah. some botak came to harass us!

woke up at around 5. then we went to macs for breakfast. bagel with omelette. tahah i did the sauce trick on alex! and he actually fell for it! HAHAH. it was a pretty good time there. went back to the chalet after that. and i slept again. ven came. then elis they all came too. ian yao and i slept for DAMN long. tahah. after that we went to play volleyball. then we had breakfast. then we went back to the chalet for awhile. ian and dricee left for training. yao ko and lex left too. then the rest of us, most of us went to play volleyball and mushroom. i was stoning while they were playing mushroom. ohwell. lotsaaaa things to think through.

after that went to collect the bbq stuff. then we started the bbq. i was damn hyper lah. i had super alot of fun. ambush, ice fights, puppet show, bbqing, doing funny stuff, bullshitting and all. it was great great fun (:

i think weijie is super super sweet lah. tahah lucky elis! hah. ian and dricee came at like 11. restarted th fire. and continued eating. HAHAH i ate super duper alot man. and ian has "go die plus" blood type, norman has "i am so full of shit plus" blood type, i have "youre a big screw up plus" blood type and dricee has "im a screw up plus" blood type! HAHAH. went to shower after that. went up to th room. sat there and oops, i freaking fell asleep. tahah when i woke up, there were only like a few people left. then joash yx evan weijie elis and i watched tv! hahah then we checked out and had lunch.

trained home after that. wenyao called and bugged me to play mahjong in the evening. slept, woke up and went there. had dinner. chicken rice and honeydew sago and i was still hungry! ohmygoodness. spoil already man. played mahjong after that. then i didnt want to stay overnight there. so they came over to my house to play cards. wenyao piggybacked me for a long time on the way to the bus stop. hahah relatively long lah. tahah retarded. ate again downstairs and we played taidee the whole MORNING. till 6am. and we all crashed. HAHAH

so woke up at around 10. yupp. slacked around and all. theyre gone already. and now im rotting.

i want tehtarik icecream

and my uncle is so ass. he gave me 450 bucks. and said "my angpow for you, be a good girl ah" then i say "from who, you?" then he "yah lah" then i "you also not married yet" then he pushed my head, "for the roasted pig lah. pass to ah ma later" WHAT THE RIGHT! hahah

alright. im super hungry. i need food. and i want to bathe. byebyebyebyebyebye

and im sick! i sound like a hoarse throat duck! and i was happy happy yesterday (: and happy happy on thursday! (: happy happy (: (: (: triple yays (:

I LOVE FOURDEE! :j

Sunday, February 18, 2007

SUNDAY 4th feb
wanted to do WORK. cause after thinking thru what mrs kelvyna chan said. its so true lah. like i owe the school then i so naughty. so i decided to be a good girl. went to wenyao's place to do work. and damnit man. i didn do a single question. HAHAH oops. then we were damn hungry. we wanted to order pizza but decided not to. sooo, WE COOKED! hahah. we cooked mee goreng and campbell soup. then we had chilli tuna (: and cocktail plus longan and peach and pineapples! hahah yummaye (: then we watched tv till like 11 plus. and then i went home (: pretty fun evening. hah

MONDAY 5th feb
chapel was okay. then we had class contact. ohyah! i wore cedar's uniform! nice! i like! hahah. anyway, class contact. we played some game. then wahlao im supposed to draw "toe the line" on the board. then when i drew, they said that my toes look like you know a paw. wahlao. ass. thats why i dont take art right! hahah actually i want to. but cannot lah. i not good enough. drawing like pangsai like that.

blahblahblah. ohyah! i was asking weijoe about the bus incident. hahah he was damn funny. he was like "i look back i can see you waving but you cant see me" HAHAH thats true. cause got the pictures on the bus! hah. hmm ohyah! flower, lilin and winnie said i look nice in the cedar uniform! triple yays! hahah (: and richenda was so sweet! when she saw me she said "hi darling, i miss you" (: tahah

oh and that poor jasvin was sick. then he had some swimming competition at night. hes a national swimmer. cool right! hahah hes damn good lah. then he was very stressed. so he kept saying damn alot of vulgarities. and talking about him drowning in a one metre pool and all that kinda rubbish. hes damnit funny. and lengseng was so nice to tell jasvin that "if you need help, just come to us" hahah and lengseng is a damn easy target to bully lah! then i was asking if he has permanent marker, then he smiled until very wide "say please?" then i WHAT THE! hahah "its the only time i can bully you" HAHAH wahlao hes damn funny lah.

chinese was the last lesson. we were snapping photos in class. then someone called me and i pick up and said hello. HAHAH damn funny. oops. went back to fairfield to play against the cdiv. pretty okay. then cabbed back to ac for training. okay, dont tell me how dumb that is. hahah. so training was okay. after training, showered and rushed off for OG OUTING! hah thank you petey and cheryl for waiting for me! we cabbed to tiong. hah. peter was damn lame. "hey babe do you miss me" like NO! hahah. then he was saying that we wear the same thing like couple. couple your head ah! hahah. idiot. then we kept snapping each other! then cheryl was like stoning -_-" hahah.

peter: if my friend says that youre pretty and asks if youre straight. i saw lesbian can?
me: can!

HAHAH. yes im a freaking lesbian! tahah. so went to tiong. met up with 7 other people from our og (: tahah so dinner was pretty fine. much laughing and all. hah. brandy is super cute lah! hahah. okay im always saying that. snapped some pictures and all after dinner. and we all went separate ways after that. hah went home i mean.

TUESDAY
had my first mass pe. quite alright. hah. then went to chinese class. i was feeling damn cold lah. then my jacket was in front, and i as too lazy to take it. then nice xavier lent me his lah! when we just finished pe! hahah. thank you! (: and know something. i really am getting fatter day by day. i eat and eat and eat non stop lah! and they said that i made the chinese teacher cry! where got!

hmm i slept during geog. i was really very tired. oops. then after the lesson. this st margs girl came to me

her: are you from maris stella
me: maris stella is a boys' school (damn not happy tone, cause i was super sleepy)
her: i mean kindergarten
me: no
her: you look very familiar

i dont even know that this kindergarten exists -_-" hah. chem was next. shit it man. chem is so damnit boring now. i super hate my tutor! went to the toilet and met pamela. then she asked if i have a boyfriend! cause i rushed off after training. HAHAH innocent girl aye.

gp was next. its damn bullshit lah. we were doing some discussion thing and then we were supposed to think of questions. so i said "why do you say so" and then that weiting go and say so loud! then miss low was laughing and laughing. then i "SHHH! can you dont say so loud. later other groups copy our questions!" then miss low laughed even more -_-" then she kept looking at me lah! and blinked damn alot of times. then i was like -_-" "why you keep looking at me! i need to wear a mask man" -____-"

sooo, math was next. andrew was super irritating! he kept irritating me lah! hahah we kept TSK-ing each other! hahah. and jasvin was damn freaking funny.

jasvin: knn, got training again
me: hahah, what time?
jasvin: dont ask me what time, all the time

jasvin: tmd, tmr still gor cross country. cross what country. i cross the sea ah.

lengseng: im waiting for my mum's car
jasvin: why you waiting for your mum's car. you no "ka" ah. my two "kas" also better than your mum's one car ah.

HAHAHAH hes damn freakin funny lah.

hah i walked out with babi and joe ong. and i dont know whyi walked them al the way to the mrt when my bus stop was just across the road lah! hahah. its so stupid.

went home really early. at around 4 plus 5. and slept till dinnertime. hah yeah.

WEDNESDAY 7th
school was pretty fine. during math, brandy and i were talking about some international college. that if we both do badly, we would go to the college together (: then boon chong was talking about o's chinese and all. then talked about jasvin. he competed in the asean championships (: that guy clinched three golds and one silver out of four events (: good right! hah and jasvin has a friend who can run 2.4 under 5minutes. MADNESS RIGHT! brandy was super cute lah! he kept laughing! hahah okay, WE kept laughing! and we talked NON STOP lah! the teacher was like so irritated!

we were released earlier. was with amanda right after school. cabbed to turf city with qian and amelia. snapped lotsa stupid photos. hah. then we went to macs. then we were eating and laughing. "amanda i love you. so i dont want you to grow fat. i help you eat" HAHAH and i ate her fries. we were laughing about dman alot of things with chelsea yini and huizhen. tahah. then we got caught by some teacher! damnit. tahah went back to the place. walked around and all. ran the mass run. i came in 2nd! for girls. HAHAH. 3.5 km. damn long lah pangsai. hah i got around 18minutes. yay! hah met up with the netballers after that. did some cheer thing. then had prize presentation and the day ended. walked out with my classmates and some netballers. thank you chark for wanting to give me a lift!

took 157 with elgin. went to jjc. had dinner with them. hah it was a great time catching up with all of them. rosalind knows peter! hah damn funny. so yeah i ate alot! tahah like 2 pizzas, one chicken and whipped potato lah. wahlao im damn fat now! hahah ass man. then yupp we went to walk around the track. then we did so many retarded stuff. joanne piggybacked me, and spun me around like dont know what. i nearly puked man. hahah then we taupoked baby koh! HAHAH it was dman funny. its my first time taupoking people! then jerry said that i look like the kind that gets taupok. eh never before kay! hahah. i had super super alot of fun. i love the jj netball team hell alot (: when i boarded the bus, all of them were screaming and waving to me lah! super funny! and they made me smile like some idiot. you see one lone soul on the bus smiling and grinning. scary right. hahah.

THURSDAY
chinese was fine. the teacher said that im very wan pi! means naughty lah! eh im not lah please. im like so freaking guai can! hahah. then she said tho im very naughty she still wants to see me back in her class. then i was like err... hahah. i think our human geog teacher is damn cool la! shes so damnit freeeaking slack. i like (: hahah.

anyway miss low scared me lah! she said she wants me to be in her class and that im her kaixinguo. i nearly fainted. nehneh man. hah. anyhows. i hate the freaking chem tutor. and thus, im going to drop chem! hah. had swim pe in the afternoon. it was pretty fun. yupp. sotong told me that she likes me and she doesn want me to change class! hahah so sweet right! (:

then after that watched the rugby matches (: hah petey was with me. then petey said that he wants to join brandy and i at the college too! hah. yeah. went to watch brandy train after that. yupp.

FRIDAY
everything was pretty alright. watched some chinese cartoon video. tahah. then school ended at 10.30. everyone hugged and all. wished each other good luck and stuff. everyone kept saying "fairfield is just next door" to me lah! hah. trained with xavier after that. talked alot (: hah then i dropped at orchard. went to town to meet three TARDS.. nat meng and jacq. hah. bought the mango racer (: yays. then we went to bibi and baba and acted retarded. we tried on ac and rj's uniforms. hahah then yeah snapped photos here and there. bussed to holland after that. lunch at thai express was not bad (: cabbed back to school after that (:

screamed alot during the announcing of various achievements! hah and dricee and jiayi were super retarded. tahah. i got a book prize! ohmygoodness right! tahah i wasnt anxious to get my results at all. told my mum to prepare herself . tahah so yeah. my friends were all more anxious than i was -_-" tahah so got my result slip. was really shocked. and yeah. so then chatteed with some fourdee people. did three cheers for miss yeo (: then yupp, miss yeo treated some people ice cream. went back to ac for training after that.

called two people. and when i heard their voices, i felt so so much like crying ): not my family members. talked alot with mr ong. training was pretty fun yupp. ended pretty early. you could see sad faces here and there. well. i pushed nat and reena plus weights on the trolley! hah. yay im strong! hahah. the toielts were already closed. so we changed behind the pingpong tables. then some guy ran past. OMG! hahah. walked out with senior pamela after that. oh i helped ian and dricee talk to mr ong! hahah. so nice right (: tahah.

SATURDAY
went for two buffets. wope up really early. went to this one-month old COUSIN's dont know what. it was pretty fine. then cabbed to greatgrand's house. slept for a few hours. then cabbed to this one-year-old COUSIN's birthday. hahah. her cake is a 3d piglet lah! damn freaking big. as big as her lah! hah and the buffet's food was fantastic. sharks fin. hashima, samba abalone, dory fillet blah. damn damn nice man. tahah. jaclyn and chrisitna, i have COUSINS okay!

cabbed home at around 10plus.

SUNDAY
went out with esmonde. walked around town. saw alot of stuff that i wanna get. tahah. esmonde treated me a twenty bucks dinner at pastacafe cause i guessed something correctly. thanks ass! (: hah and i treated him rocky mountain! tahah. then right i saw this ripcurl beret that i wanted. but i didn have enough money. and that ass didn want to lend me at first. so ten minutes later, it was gone. i was like HEARTBROKEN. hahah well well.

so then walked around somemore. then went to starbucks. wenyao came along. for a short while only but he still wanted to come cause he felt bad about pangsehing us for most of the day. hahah. bussed back afterwards. yeah. and oh! we met miss toh! hahah. and wenyao and esmonde says that they know why im so smart! hahah im lazy to say. its just that they were talking and i was playing with my phone and then i suddenly commented. and they got shocked. then they were like i didn know you were listening. then i told them what i heard. then they were like "thats everything we said" HAHAH damn funny. then they said thats why im so smart. bullshit right! and we saw norbit's trailer. super funny! i wanna catch it with the both of them! hahah

MONDAY 12th
school as per normal. was in cedar's uniform again. hah. the day went by and all. needed the jae book and then i knew lengseng will have it! HAHAH. slept in geog lecture. i was damn freaking tired. hah. yupp. after school, went to see miss aisha. cause i faked miss low that i got 22 points then she went to tell miss aisha -_-" okay, i faked alot of people that i got 22 points. thank you emma zhuan yi and jean for accompanying me (:

went to the cafe with jean after that. walked her back to the stadium. met up with esmonde and lissa. brought them to the cafe to meet jacq, mitchel, ian, chark and winnie. yupp. it was a pretty fun time. dricee came afterwards. brought the two soccer boys down to meet the soccer team. went for training. it rained, so we skipped 2400 times. freaking tiring man. so yeah the mundane stuff and all. i hate it. had to redo the drills all over again cause we were SLOPPY. well.
after training. showered and all. peter saw me and waited for me. we went to serene centre to find flower and nick. petey and i ate macs and went over to island creamery. once we stepped in, they offed the lights of the fridge. like WHAT THE. went back to macs for a chat. then nick and i walked to the bus stop. had to run damnit. hahah so freaking tiring man.

came home, did the valentines day present till about 2. and fell asleep. HAHAH.

TUESDAY
i didn go school miss aisha asked me to call her. i kept getting into trouble damnit. woke up pretty late. used com for a while. went for the juniors' match. the cdiv are in the top four already (: good job girls (: dinner with someone special was cancelled. ):

bussed to marina. met up with es. got my beret (: tahah met senior swee cheng. then yeah. went kenny rogers! corn nibblets, mashed potato, marcaroni and cheese (: yumm i love (: hah. then went to imperial treasure for lamian and xiaolongbao. its not as nice as crystal jade's. hah. went to get the cake after that. it was so pretty! hah then walked around. saw so many things that i want! i want i want! hahah. bussed home after that. continue doing the vday presents till about 2.

WEDNESDAY- VALENTINES DAY <3!
neo's parents fetched me to school (: thanks! hah. passed present to some people in fairfield and went to school.

okay the day was really nice. i skipped chem lecture oops. i dont care! hahah. and hmm i need to thank all these people!

PAK! -muffin!
BABI CHEONG! the PRETTY BALLOON! (:
PETER! - the heart shaped thing and the choc banana cookies!
AMANDA YONG! the beautiful rose!
JEAN KOH! the nice muffin in pretty paper bag!
JEAN GOH! brownie in a pretty orange bag!
QIAN QIAN! m&ms!
SOH TENG! -chocs
VANESSA! -chocs
SHERMAINE! -three rochers in a pretty wrapper!
WANQI! -rocher!
CELESTE! -mickey mouse titbit!
JIAZHI! -mickey mouse biscuits
ETHEL! -hersheys kisses!
CHERYL LEE!- m&ms
JACO! - toblerone and m&ms!
DAWN! -cookie!
ESTHER(junior)! - cookie!
AHMA LIZHEN! -lollipop!
EMMA! -lollipop!
EMMA AND ZHUAN YI!- MARSHMALLOW BLAST
XINYI! -the chocs she baked!
NICK NGO! the pink balloon!
JEM! -KIT KAT COOKIE DOUGH!
WEIXIN! -m&ms
RUIYAN! hersheys kisses!
SHERRI! -the cereal thing!
SIJAY! -the hersheys in the nice nice package!
NICOLE FOO! -the hersheys in the nice wrapping!
XINGJIE! -yellow handmade rose!
SECRET VALENTINE! -SIX PRETTY COOKIES IN PRETTY PACKAGING
chong boon - for that black dont know what thing. hahah


THANK YOU GUYS! you guys made me soooo happy! (: hahah and sijay was so nice lah! i was complaining that i had no flowers! then he was like "why you never tell me, i sure buy for you wan what." hahah so nice right! hahah.

so had sji with the senior class. it was pretty alright. we had two choc cakes (: yummaye. then yeah snapped some photos and went back to fairfield with jacq chark winnie and meng. passed presents to some people too. then yupp. went to disturb miss yeo! hahah. it was super funny. lingered around for a short while and i made my way back to ac. ian and dricee came for training too. it was the selections. i played really badly but i really dont care anymore. well.

showered and wenyao called. met ian jiayi and yao at the gate. walked to buona. thank you people for helping me carry my stuff! (: hah. trained to dhobyghaut. when we were about to get off, i didnt know. so i got a shock and all my vday gifts toppled over! like WTH. then ian was helping me to pick up everything and all. super malu lah! haha and we were both wearing fairfield shirts! hahah. so that nice guy helped me carry my stuff (: thanks. we waited for 5 minutes for the train back to dhoby ghaut. HAHAH i think its super funny lah. but i gave you cookie okay ian chang. tahah.

met up with jiayi and yao again. went to cafe cartel but there was nothing to eat. they only had fish and pasta. tahah. so we went to bk. yupp. met up with alex. it was a pretty good time and all. bussed home with yao after that.

THURSDAY
didn want to go school. but i thought of brandy! "actually i got you flowers" hahah then i went to school and know what. stupid brandy didnt come! hahah that ass. and i was late know. actually i wouldnt have been. buti met sohteng on the way. so we decided that we shall just go to detention class. hahah. sohteng said that im cute. OMG. HAHAH. and emma pinched my face like im some small girl lah!

so yeah anyway the day was pretty good. except that i receive some ridiculous smses from some retard. like what the hell okay. miss leow was damn slack. hahah i love her man "if nobody else comes in, i'll give you guys free period. im very tired" hahahah but in the end, almost the whole class came luh. so she continued teaching. but it was damn slack and she let us off early. tahah.

hmm. went to see miss aisha at 2 plus. hmm. yeah. so had swim pe in the afternoon. yupp. pretty okay. it rained. im starting to really think that mr ong is yeeleen's boyfriend lah! hahah. i already suspected since last thursday but then yeeleen says no! hahah.

after swim pe, i realised that i lost my freaking phone. so i didnt go for detention. thank you petey and andrew for being there. andrew was really nice. the nicest he has ever been to me man. hah i went to buy a waffle and found my phone in the general office. bless the kind soul who found my phone (: so then went to the badminton hall to find petey. had salmon don in the cafe with margeret and her friend. then yeah. played badminton after that. damnit, peter is freaking good know. hahah. then went to find brandy to pass him his present. he came for tennis training. hah.

yeah. so after that. supposed to go off with jacq. but then her dad came. so i went home myself. met WESLEY on the bus! HAHAH so coincidental right! then we talked alot alot. hah that guy is really cute man! hahah.

hmm yeah. so got home, bathed and all. talked on the phone till 12 plus. yupp (:

FRIDAY
went to school. was nearly late. thankGod wasnt. they showed the dedications thing for vday. there were some really sad dedications. well. hmm yah. had class contact after that. then went to the hall for the concert. jean and i slept for a while. hah woke up at the indian dance part. the dikir barat was really nice! hahha. the dance also. i wanna join dance know. right from the start. i love watching people dance! hahah. but i think i cant dance luh ):

hah. so after the performance. went to find amanda. chatted with a few netballers for awhile. wanted to go back to fairfield but i didnt. cause i thought that no one is going back. so took bus with amanda jean goh sohteng and amelia. amanda and i dropped somewhere and we went to island creamery. tehtarik and fresh banana icecream are LOVE (: really. hah then we went to some nearby police post and waited for her dad. it was dman funny i tell you. cause her mum crashed her car, so they rented some car. and told amanda that its a BIG car. then amanda was so scared that they will pick her up in a van! hahah it was super funny. especially when theis van came and horned. amanda's heart dropped. HAHAH. it was freaking funny. i laughed till i cry lah! hahah. her dad drove me to the nearest bus stop, which was like 10metres away. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH it was damnit funny. so in the end, i didnt want to get off. so the dad drove me to another bus stop. HAHAH. i took 77 to town. met some girl on the bus that looked familiar. she waved and smiled. i did the same too, just that i dont know who she is. hah

so went to town. walked around in taka. then met yao. went to cine. met esmonde and his FRIENDS. hahah then yao and i met chark alex and yao. then we played pool (: then yao and i went shopping. had lunch at kfc. then esmonde joined us. so went to wisma blah. the fareast. yao bought two shirts. i bought one and a belt. the shirts are damn cool i tell you. hahah. limited edition eh. tahah

supposed to play overnight mahjong but we didnt. cause i was really tired. came home at around 11. showered. knocked out immediately. hah

met super alot of people lah, xingjie, chelsea, yini, huizhen, clarence and sherman, melissa from jj, anna, hengchuan, nicolette, terrance, kaishen, calvin, clarence chai, peiyan, hweeyi, evan chee michelle leong, ellery and 2 fairsians, geraldine and some acsians, and sebastian.

HAHAH thats damn alot right! hahah and i have a sad life man. i malued myself damn alot of times lah! super alot okay! hahah i dont wanna say. super malu lah. hahah only esmonde and wenyao know! hahah. oh and that kaishen! hes working in bk. then he served me. and i remembered him! hes my primary school wan nah! hes one year younger than me. tahah. not bad not bad my memory. HAHAH.

SATURDAY
woke up super early. packed my bag. went to wenyao's house there. had breakfast. fishball noodles 3 bucks plus egg prata. do i eat alot? i hell think yes. tsk. well well. so after that. went up to yaos house. woke him up and played mahjong. then we took a break and i slept.hahah waited for chye aik to come and then second round. tahah im the ultimate winner! the capital is 340. i had 593 at the end! (: hahah yayyyy

then played some poker. rushed home after that. reunion dinner was fineeee. mummy and uncle's fiancee talked to me about boyfriends. not talk lah but just like chatting. hahha. rubbish man they all. hah and now im on the com. this post is so freaking long man. and today i ate so much. fishball noodles, prata, chicken rice and reunion dinner. fat. I AM FAT.

hahah. tata

> FAIRFIELD NETBALL BGIRLS 07. heyy my darlings, cheer up yeah (: much love.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS EVE! (:

Thursday, February 15, 2007

im such a happy girl (:

> stupid boy, i was so happy to see that message. i dont know why (:

and thank you everyone for the lovely presents! (: balloons, cookies, muffins, chocs, rose, and more chocs. thank you guys (:

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

i haven posted for the past week. and the post is really gonna be super long. but im not free to do it now. im really busy right now. hahah. and tomorrow's valentines' day! i have a date! im dating netball! from 3 to 8! WONDERFUL! hahah. anyway, im going for the juniors' match later and going for dinner with a special someone (: (: (: triple yaysss

know what, the m&ms that you gave me last may. i couldnt bear to eat them. and now theyre all expired ): ): ): ):

and i miss brandon lucas lai wen jie a heap load ): and i know i'll miss andrew, pet, nat and achala too. i hope hannah's staying ): amongst the midst of rejoicing, theres always stuff that will make you sad. tragedies, unfortunate events, whatever. they so suck. ):

and i really want to praise God for the biggest miracle in my life ever. my results. thank you Lord, for Your mercy and grace upon me.

; this never meant nothing to you

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I shouldn't love you, but I want to

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to

Now i look back on the time that we spent and
I see it in my mind
Playing over and over again
Visions in my mind
Of the day that we met
U showed me things
That i'll never forget
U had my head up in the clouds
Make me feel like im floating

Its hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But Im doin It
Its hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and Im alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

I guess its over
Indefinitely
But u and i know
Its not that easy
To let go

Of everything that we had
And start all over again

You forgot about the promises
You made me
And now we'll let the memories
Just fade away
But i'll remember
What u used to say

its been exactly six months, and i finally really totally wholeheartedly got over you (:
and i truly wish you and her all the very best (:

; this is the day

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

and now the suspicions are confirmed. and know what, it hasnt even been six months. like i said, i must have been a fool to have tried believing what they told me.

and to you, i am damn disappointed in what you did on thursday.


kim, theres four more days/

Sunday, February 04, 2007

GOOD MORNING (: okay afternoon. hah

so i shall start from hmm friday

so off to school as usual. first two periods were free periods so i was with lengseng, zhuan yi and jasvin. the geog students (: hah theyre a fun bunch i must say. and lengseng that good boy actually asked me to pon training! cause there was suppoed to be a class outing after school. and i couldnt go cause i had training. yeah. so he kept asking me to pon training the whole day lah!hes damn funny anyway. hahah

so then lessons blah. was with cheryl lee then we saw peter. we were all like super happy. thats how much we miss petey! hah but i cant wait for tomorrow! OG OG OG OUTING! (: triple yaysss. hahah. then cheryl was complaining that brandy always ignores her! HAHAH brandy always say hi to me! (: that time i sorta ignore him and he was like FINE NAH! hahah hes so cute!

anyway i was really tired so i was sleeping in chinese. then i was really like a zombie. so sijay saw me and asked if im okay. nice guy (: hah. and brandy lai is nice (: hah my chem pract class happened to be next to brandy's. then we just happened to turn around at the same time and waved! hah brandy! (:

bio lecture was up next i think. and know what that stupid andrew did! i was walking out of the lecture hall, then he pulled my bag, and then i was like OHSHIT! cause i thought i got stuck at the door! HAHAH stupid ass.

hah blahblah. sitting with zhuan yi and emma during classes are really fun. those two are forever engaging in INTERESTING conversations. HAHAH.

OH! and lengseng was like damn horrified, cause i ate damn alot. i ate rice plus donut plus dont know what. i just kept eating! HAHAH. blahblah. went back to fairfield after school. walked around and all. ian and jiayi were in school! hahah. norman came later too. so yeah, it was pretty fun walking around, watching the hustle and bustle of fairfield. blah.

had to rush back to ac for training after that. was talkin to ian at the street soccer court there. so near yet so far. he was in fairfield and i was in ac. hahah. so training, i ran four rounds and did a lil bit of weights and i didnt train after that. damn you stiff neck ): anyway, senior xian wei and senior GABY are damn nice! (: hahah and senior jerry is damn funny! hahah.

so i was pretty bored. sitting there and stoning. and know what, friday trainings are the more important ones. hmph. didn shower after that. the sports complex was like blacking out everywhere already. hah. anyway amelia sister was there, so i just went "youre amelia's sister. so whats your name? amanda?" then she nodded. i got a shock lah! HAHAH so coincidental!

hah wanqi's dad sent me to parc oasis after that. bussed home from there. was on the phone till like 11.30 or something. then was on the com till around 2. SIMIMON IS DAMN FUNNY! hahah

SATURDAY
woke up at like 1 plus. then met christina at 2 plus. went to jjc's carnival. met many many many people! clarence, sherman, babi, cheryl, kong, wenyao, xinyi, pak, joelynn, xiangfeng, lanz, yongzhi, grace, meng, joshua lim, tiff, norman, aaron, alex, jiayi, junjie, pengtiong, zheyuan, shahidah and gang, huishi, amelia, elis and weijie, joanne, qihui, jerry, sherri, jiapei, vanessa, jacintta. blahblah cannot remember already. hahah. anyway zheyuan is damn funny! he couldnt recognise me despite xinyi's attempts to help him to. hahah then after xinyi said "kimberly yeo. you know? kimberley yeo" thn a few seconds later, zhe yuan went "OH! KIMBERLEY YEO WAN TING HUH!" hahah super funny lah he. didn get on any rides. lin and i spent all our money on food. and there was nothing like fantastically nice. hah. we watched finish the performance at the central stage. then lin and i went off. went back home to change and all. then accompanied her home before bussing to town.

met up with three lovelies at cine. namely, aileen tham, leon teh and kennedy kweh. poor julia was sick. takecare sweet (: hmm so yeah. we went to take for dinner. hah pretty fun time and all. went to art friend. its my favourite place now! im going to go back there maybe later or something. hahah (: i like. we wanted to catch a movie but there was no timings at lido. the guys went to play lan while i walked aileen to her bus stop.

went to meet daniel after that, at cityhall. walked to dxo. ben had been queuing for like 3 hours. and then we realised that our damn tickets were fake. but in the end, we got the original. and then we went in. watched the people dance and all. pretty cool luh. anyway simimon was there! hes damn funny. hes a digimon lah, he could have just flew up or destroy everyone there. HAHAH. reuben, ben low, stella, clara blah were there also. hahah. super funny lah ben low. he was queuing with me, cause we were underage -_-" hahah. so yeah got to know ben's friend. hes baohan. he looks damn scary lah, but wahlao, hes full of shit man! hah. we went to the second level and sat there. pretty nice and all. lotsa lame jokes and all. hahah you knw one glass of coke costs 10 bucks. theres diamond dust inside man! hah. we left at around 4am. cabbed to lau pasat for BREAKFAST. bbq stingray (: yumm. and ben paid for ALL my expenses lah. must pay him back.

they all sent me home after that. thank you guys. i had fun! (:

and that day hiroshi talked to me, after like four years. hah, and he still remembers so so much about me! hah. scary aint it. HAHAH last time he always call me wan lah! then play violin -_-' i was damn irritated seriously. HAHAH. oh and i got a lil traumatised after that by someone else. well.

anyway my granny was damn cute lah! she was staring at me again. then i was like WHATTT. then she smile smile smile, my hair nice not? HAHAHAH PANGSAI! second time already lah! hahah. then she nagged at me for drinking coke again. then i was like no lor, i drink already then i give you the can. i so nice right. HAHAH.

but at the end of it all, nothing can take my mind fully off that.

i have seven more days.

; youre just a sad song with nothing to say

Saturday, February 03, 2007

today was pretty good (: except for the fact that i had a stiff neck ): hah. well, kinda lazy to blog now. hah

anyway, simimon made me laugh really hard just now. hes so super funny!

i called him a mean fisherman and so he said that im fisherman's friend! so he went on to say that his favourite flavour is apple SINIMON. HAHAHAH he doesn know how to spell it! hahah in the end, he became SIMIMON! hes a digimon! HAHAHAH

i have alot of new songs and im real happy today ((:

> thanks for the massage <3! (:

; and will it matter after im gone


Thursday, February 01, 2007

i havent really blogged in a long time. so since i have time. i'll try to blog. hah.

SUNDAY
went out with esmonde in the afternoon. to novena for his volcom jacket. and oops, i bought 2 fila polo tees (: and one fila tee for my brother (: so yeah. got his jacket and all. i really wanted to get this ripcurl bag but i didnt. so yeah. then we went to bugis. got my denim shorts and another limited edition tee. got a bracelet too. ohyeah, and two pairs of earrings. hah. i spent like 850 bucks in 3 weeks. die man. dinner at fish&co was pretty nice. seafood platter for two (: i was so damnit full. and i wanted to drink sharkie freeze so much lah! DAMN. hah. i like the clam chowder (: and there were three birthday babies in the house. hah.

MONDAY
went to fairfield to pass ahma lizhen her present. then yeah. went into the toilet. this girl looked at me and said "your ear will get CATCH leh" then i was like going to laugh but i dint. so i just said that i wasnt in the school already then she went "so malu!" hah shes so funny. school was as usual. can you believe it, a class of freaking 11 or below pointers are scared about their olevels results. like HELLO, im twenty lah can.

anyway, was smsing peter during assembly. it was damn funny. "wahlao. this is damn lame. i can see you lah" then peter stood up, pretended to stretch, saw me and laughed. hah that pandhi. anyway i pon class pon until i dont know anything. i cant answer all the questions that were shot at me lah. damnit. miss low asked us to do some quiz thing. when i gave her my paper, she looked darn terrified, then she read my answers first. hah.

we are playing some secret valentine game. something like angel and mortal. then its like -_-" i was thinking who i want to pick, i was thinking DONT WANT this person. then i got him lah! WAHLAO! but anyway, we reshuffled. so then i was like. okay i want that person. and i got him! HAHAH. scary right. last time also. i was thinking, "okay cedric lah" and i got him. then they wanted to reshuffle! then i was like piang eh, sure cannot get dricee already cause i was the second last person to draw. and i got cedric lah! HAHAH.

anyway my class is damn scary can. they know the answers to everything lah! hah anyway my mummy is damn nice (: i cut school and tahah, went for the juniors match. they won (: so yupp. went back to ac for some dsa/appeal talk. mrs kelvyna chan is damnnnnnnnn nice lah. seriously, DAMNNNN nice. hahah. so yeah. and brandy lai is damn cute (: tahah. anyway, miss low is quite nice lah. hah. didn go for training. was really sick and tired of stuff. ohwell.

TUESDAY
didnt go to school. so yeah. went to jjc to find xinyi. met xiangyuan, rosalind, joanne, jerry and qihui. and that made me really happy. i really miss them alot. but at the same time, i was damn sad. ohwell. yeeleen drove xinyi and i down to fairfield. so yeah played against the bdiv. i so suck man i tell you. well. met senior angela and people. chatted a fair bit with her. got my yummies and went home with xinyi.

WEDNESDAY
went to school. was nearly late tho i woke up earlier than usual -_-" so yeah. bio pract was up first. i was really quiet. and i felt so much like crying. chem was next. thank you jasvin for helping me do my work. had to copy chem. rushed like shit lah. but in the end thank god i didnt have to hand it in as yet. im damn bullshit lah i think. hah. i think my class thinks so too. i was damn kanchiong lah. copy until like pangsai. somemore must recopy math cause jasvin's handwriting was super not like mine. hah

math was next. brandy lai was as usual, super cute. hah. we kept laughing lah. then he took my paper and i pointed my 4th finger at him! hahah. that stupid boy. and i sat beside a genius who knows everything. shes crazy. like really.

hmm i dont know whats up next. i cant remember. hah. heck. i know during pccg, we had a discussion about valentines day. i wanted secret recipe's cake! and some wanted awfully choc! awfully choc is not say damn nice what. hah. anyway, more people supported my idea! YAY! hahah. they say that im damn smart -_-" hell bullshit. anyway did i mention that ac's students council is really creative? love ACtually. hah. and their project all must go video is super cool! hahah. actually all the ccas are damn creative lah! hah

hmm so after school. went to the all must go sale. hah. so got a notebook and a tee. went back to fairfield for awhile. was really dreading training. and i nearly broke down in front of kong they all. ohwell. went back to ac. was really like so.. i dont know. well. ran 1.2 km as usual. im happy with my timing. like really. well. so training wasnt so bad. i talked alot i dont know why. told them about corny pick up lines like "my name is jing wan, you can call me tonight"

hah. weights and drills and stuff. pretty okay. talked alot with hui shian and eden (: yeah. went to the cafe with like ten netballers after training. it was pretty fun. yeah had to go off soon after. didn shower, just changed. i was damn shocked when i came out of the toilet. i saw yuquan! hah. and then i met him at the bus stop also. so we talked and talked. and we both so happened to have to go to tiong! tahah. its really nice talking to him (:

so met up with esmonde and kengheng (: had dinner. and we watched gridiron gang. nice! hah. then yeah, reached home at around 1am. it was a pretty good night (;

TODAY
dint go school again -_-" went to school at around 12. to pass yuxuan his homework. pangsai, i didn even copy. damnit. die already man. anyway yuxuan is a damn nice guy lah! so then i was comtemplating as to if i should go to school. i didnt in the end, i went to pjc. it was a treacherous journey. i took five buses lah! hah thank god i have concession! hah. hmm so went into pjc. its pretty okay. saw a few familiar faces. ying thong, edwin, stanley. hah i wanted to eat the apple lattice but i had to wait. so i ate the peach tart instead. its pretty good. left pj at about 3. we went back to fairfield. went to find miss yeo, had a good talk with her (: then i went to find the netballers. yeah. it was a pretty good time talking to them and all. had a chat with shaun wai also. then went off at around 6. and so coincidentally, i had to see him when i was walking out.

anyway, i have a dare to complete tomorrow. im supposed to go up to my eyecandy and say "my name is jingwan, you can call me tonight"

> KENGHENG! thanks for the two bars of switzerland chocs! (:

> bestfriend. i no longer know what to say to you. i am sad too. i really am. ohwell


`And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to

> i never expected it. but now that i know, i just have to accept it. at the end of it all. youre still not who they made you out to be. and i must have been a fool to have even tried believing them.
/ ten days. i just need ten days.

; theres so much i cant say