Thursday, September 25, 2008

I Heart ?


You and me, we got this great thing (:

its 25th sept!

HAPPY UNOFFICIAL NINTH MONTH PANDHI :D

thanks for always being so sweet and nice and everything! for always messaging me and calling me, for all the sweet things you always say, for all the many uncountable and very sweet surprises, for all the gifts and little things you make for me, for giving in to me, for wanting to have the same stuff as me( same colour havis, phone, wallpaper, pens, ETC), for wanting to switch bags, for liking the carebear and carrying it around although its like gay, for always wearing the same ac shirt as me, for always staying back in school to wait for me, for wanting to follow me everywhere, for meeting me and surprising me always even if im far far away, for grabbing hold of every opportunity to see me, for hanging out with my friends, for being retarded with me(eg: playing catching in the sunken gallery HAHAH and alot alot a hell lot more), for always staying out late with me although youre tired, for offering to go for lecture with me, for offering and taking down notes for me, for helping me print my huge stack of notes, for eating chilli with me, for liking the things that i like, for always being there for me, for always caring so much about me, for always telling me im pretty although im not, for always making me feel very important, for watching me sleep, for taking care of me whenever im sick, for writing the lyrics of built to last for me, for writing the lyrics of always be my baby for me (not knowing that its a post break up song HAHAH), for always smiling, for always making me smile and laugh, for taking note of what i like, for knowing me so well, for remembering stuff about last year(how we first met in feb, how we used to talk quite alot online, about eating kitkatcookiedough in front of me, what i wore when i went for your polo game ETC), for remembering things about us, for always showing me that you love me, for making every single second spent with you so valuable and fun and precious, for always making me happy, for being the sweetest and cutest and bestest, for coming over in your blazer after honours night to surprise me just now, for telling me you want to marry me again and again although i rejected you HAHAH, for being sad over me HAHAH, for bearing with all my nonsense, my retardedness, sarcasm, temper and meanness, for every every EVERY thing and really, thanks for loving me :D basically, thanks for being with me! (: if i go on, i think i'll never end. so this is a really short summary! hahah.

this is like the first ever picture i posted of us. hahah i never had the courage to but finally! i've posted one. hahah we have like near 2000 photos together, so maybe after a's. i'll post EVERYTHING up. hahahah.

hello ni qi pan jun hao! although sometimes we fight over the most trivial of things which are actually quite funny and retarded hahah! but we always manage to solve all the stupid problems and things just get better and better(: like you said! all the ups and downs just bring us closer and closer (: and im really really glad that i've got you (: i think we're really cute and i really love the way you love me (: thanks for everything you've done for me, said to me, planned for me, helped me with and thank you very much x one million to the power of infinity + 1 for loving me :D and i know, how much you really love me. i never thought anyone can love me this much and im really really honestly very lucky. and i really thank God for you (:

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
But most of all it's built to last.

You and I were made to get love right! <3!

happy 275 days
(according to you)(okay fine youre right hahah) !! :D :D

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Velocity


I LOVE THIS PICTURE. HAHAHAHAH


-_-"


the retarded things we do hahah


he made the 'LOVE' on his calculator! so cute right haha (:



when we sent gerry off to melbourne.


when we sent xian off to melbourne/adelaide




and reena's going to uk this friday.. for four years ): really really gonna miss her ): ):

Friday, September 19, 2008

Check Yes Juliet




the man who cant be moved and t-shirt are nicey nice songs :D

life's been good and fun still and i am way too lazy to blog about every single day for now although i really want to! hahah. but i shall blog about today! (:

i went to school earlier than usual this morning. bumped into luci on the bus and so we chatted all the way to school. i walked with him to his class cause i was looking for jiazhi. so i was like "eh, wheres jiazhi..?" cause she wasnt at her class the seats there yet. then the next second, i turned to my left and there, she arrived. hahah. so jiazhi and i talked talked talked and then warrick the retard truefriend interrupted our conversation. hahah a pretty good way to start a thurday morning. especially after i slept at 1 plus cause i was online doing dont know what shit -_-" feels like holidays right pandhiiiiii. hahah.

school was fun today! breaktime was well spent with the pandhi and my classmates. hahah i swear jeraldine is retarded. when she doesnt laugh, she doesnt. even when everyone is laughing, sometimes she doesnt laugh. BUT when she laughs, she cant stop. HAHAH. smart girllll why like that. haha.

math was damn funny. timed assignment in the lecture theatre and how bout marc seah that smart ass was disturbing me throughout the entire lesson!! he was like showing me a "bubble moving" on the gc -_-" and he was so amused he kept laughing and laughing. hahah then eli got a question that she thought she did correctly wrong and she went "this is the saddest thing on earth" hahah marc and i started fighting after that. cause that eetard pushed me while i was writing. so i drew across his paper and he drew on mine and i... crushed his paper. HAHAHAHA. and then we couldnt stop laughing bout it. then while we were walking out of the lt, i gently pushed him a little and he went crashing into the bin and it was so loud everyone stared at me like im some super strong and violent dood that pushed marcseah the retard into the bin -_-" hahahah we couldnt stop laughing all the way to gp and we met mother thelisa (my gp tutor) on the way. so we were complaining to her what we did to each other. HAHAH. then she said marc and i are like kindergarten kids and we should sit far away from each other. hahahah.

after gp, i wanted to go home straight away and sleep cause that was my initial plan. but being a nice and really good friend, i stayed back and waited with pandhi for the blazer room to be opened. hahah. we did work in the hub with jingwen and jeraldine. and then... we had some fun. HAHAH. we saw cal sitting in the hub quite a distance away. so pandhi called cal and disturbed him and pandhi refused to tell cal where he was. so cal was like looking around and around and trying to find pandhi. then we decided to utilise our unlimited sms.. by texting cal "cal why you flirt............" HAHAH like twenty five times each. HAHAH then cal continued to look around frantically and he even went on a search for us, and he walked past our table but dint see us. HAHAH then we messaged "cal why you never reply........." HAHAHAH we were laughing like some retards and cal's reactions were rather funny. so when we decided to leave we went to talk to cal and he showed us his inbox. 46 unread messages HAHAHA he said he gave up reading. hahah

pandhi went for a haircut and then he came over to my place and my grandma commented bout him again. HAHAH. i swear my whole family likes him lah. and even more so cause my brother likes him alot. they are happy when pandhi play with my brother -_-" cause that way, my brother is not THAT irritating. hahah. pandhi sat by my bed and stroked my hair till i fell asleep before he left (: and i just woke up not long ago. pretty good sleeeppp [:

mummy just called and told me something pretty funny. hahah.

OHYEAH, and the picture, hahah its the syringe that i have to use to clean my gum. how bout.. its not wisdom tooth and its cause my molar grew too late and my excess flesh on my gum hasnt disappeared. so basically, everything bout my teeth and gum is late growth. hahah wahlao stupid gum inflammation. made my whole mouth and jawbone hurt like crazy. but its better now. haha i brought the syringe to school and scared a couple of my classmates because everyone thought it was needle HAHAHAH. and right, i was so scared when i went to the dentist. like two of them were "operating" on me. and there was alot of blood and it was so painful i teared ): hahah then they put some stuff to "corrode" away my excess gum. but, its still there. and if it doesnt go away in 2 weeks, i'll need to cut it off -_-" ]: sounds scary right... it is scary.. zzz

and i have yet to upload the pictures from jiazhi's birthday. hahah i know many people want to see the video HAHA. patience ah. patience is a virtue. hahah

omg my uncle just said something damn retarded and funny HAHAH. okay i always type this kinda things and then not say what happened or whatever. haha lazyyy.

and to a few special people, everything's gonna be fine (: yes cliche as it sounds and as often as it has been used without any signs of everything being alright. i believe that everything will turn out right, one way or another. [: smile and you'll feel better (:

ohyeah and i suddenly remembered what titi said. something like this

titi: SAVE US!
me: how
titi: burn down the school
me: how to save yall i so far away
titi: better save us brother! if not you got no more boyfriend and brother
me: HAHA. yall can save yourself lah.
titi: haha but fire leh. we will burn. we are made of paper.

HAHAH the things titi say ah. and titi is sad that his girlfriend(warrick wee) doesnt care about him anymore. HAHAHHA. the complicated truth... hahahah.

pandhi says:
clubster of the year.
KIMBERLEY(: says:
thats jaclyn omg
pandhi says:
haha
pandhi says:
QUEEN OF CLUBS
pandhi says:
HAHA
pandhi says:
give her the queen of clubs when we play cards lah
pandhi says:
HAHA
KIMBERLEY(: says:
HAHA funny ah
pandhi says:
haha!
pandhi says:
u can get the queen of hearts and i can get the king of hearts
pandhi says:
:D
KIMBERLEY(: says:
hahah why?
pandhi says:
cause the queen and king go together.
KIMBERLEY(: says:
hahah really who say
pandhi says:
and both hearts
pandhi says:
...
pandhi says:
ok fine...
pandhi says:
go with the jack la
KIMBERLEY(: says:
HAHA kidding lah
pandhi says:
jack is the third party lah
pandhi says:
HAHAH
pandhi says:
di san zhe


hahahah (:

goodnight peeper, have a goody good weekendz! [:

Sunday, September 14, 2008

rubbish-filled post.

HELLO EVERYONE. im actually pretty angsty that i really wanna talk alot alot alot. hahahah and the reason why im angsty is because. i am too wise, and my wisdom has overflowed and is so overwhelming that.. my third wisdom tooth is growing. !@#$%$% and it hurts really really bad and now my cheek is swollen -_-" ......zXzxzXzxzZxzxzxZXz and so while i was eating roti john at spize with jaclyn christina ben jasmin diantian dianrong just now, i was talking alot at the first part cause i was angsty. like WHY, WHY ME. why must i have so many wisdom teeth and why must this stupid tooth grow now ]: that time doctor joanna said that it will take TWO YEARS to grow. TWO MONTHS since my visit to the dentist only eh. grow already. whats this whats this whats this. why me. zzz. and i remember the xray, that this new wisdom tooth is growing underneath my molar. i honestly have no idea.. how they're gonna extract it..... AH shit im damn scared now ]: anddddd it hurts when i eat or drink zzz. so i was very quiet while we were eating cause it was hurting. ]: and my theory of why i should talk alot now is because after i extract my tooth, i most probably wont want to talk to anybody. cause it'll be hurting so bad i'll probably refuse to open my mouth. and the best thing is, im a total loser when it comes to pain. im so going to die during the operation. maybe i'll die from fear of pain of tooth extraction -_-" this sucks. ahhhhhh. i. am. freaking. mother. scared.):

hurrrr no shit okay. i really am damn scared. zzz

dint study with warrick in school today cause i was supposed to have dinner with jz and the rest at greatworld. so i decided to go to valleypoint and study on my own cause its near greatworld. THEN dinner was cancelled -_-" i should have studied with warrick instead man. hahah. see lah jiazhi tsk tsk. anyway! i completed like 60pages of damn geog today. volcanoes volcanoes volcanoes. i'll dream of volcanoes tonight man. freaking killer i swear. but im very proud of myself (: hahah

AND OHYEAH. im here purposely to reveal the vulnerability of marcseah the smelly one. hahah. on monday night, near 12 am. marc called and we were talking and talking and he refused to let me sleep. and he went

"PLEASE DONT DITCH ME. PLEASE"

HAHAHAHAHA.


and then i had to entertain him -_-" then we played msn solitaire showdown. every round he said IM GONNA OWN YOU or YOURE GOING DOWN. and then in the end, we played so many rounds. i won him 9-1. HAHAH. then finally, finally he agreed to let me sleep. hahah

monday was really random. pandhi and i were walking out of school and bala and cheryl were behind us. and so we ended up going to bala's house to study. and it wasnt productive cause i slept for an hour. HAHAH. tuesday was haircut day. and yes WEDNESDAY WAS THE DAY. THE DAY that we destroyed jiazhi. hahah i planned so much more stuff but had no time to carry them out. but anyway it was memorable enough already i guess. right alliance? :D hahah.

thursday was studying with tingali and jobasan at harbourfront. i was late for like 5 hours hahah. then pandhi came to surprise me and then we went for dinner at ikea with jaclyn christina ben and jasmin. ordered three tables full of food. hahahah. glad i finally got to meet them :D friday was studying at bukitmerahmacs which wasnt really productive. hah.

and it sucks when your bestfriends are having holidays. they keep asking you to go out. and i know i cant cause i really have to study already. zzz. nevermind. three more months to the END of it all. (: cant wait manz. hahah. then i can laugh at all you asses jaclyn christina and jasmin. hahaha. today they said "EH YOU FAIL LAH, THEN COME POLY. WE RETAIN WAIT FOR YOU" HAHAHA all in different polys, which one i go you tell me. hahah.

ohyeah! my mum bought more durian mooncakes. so like she told me its from goodwoodparkhotel and then i went to see. when i opened the box, i saw one huge black round chunk. and then i was like ???? hahah then i realised its cookies and durian. hahah but i dint eat. anyway goodwoodpark's durian mooncakes are the bomb manz. hahah. and i shall feed on icecream tomorrow to ease the pain and hopefully i can extract the damn tooth on monday although im so damn scared but ugh. I CAN DO THIS. I AM BRAVE. sometimes self-delusion helps. zzz.

and when i was on the way back. i saw an old man standing near the bushes. and at first i was like quite scared cause the figure wasnt moving so i thought it was you know something supernatural. then when the man turned around, he zipped his pants -_-" i was like...........

and then i got on the bus and saw this old man digging his nose and flicking the friends from his nose and i was like !?!?!?

hahah quite an interesting day today.

this post is so random and full of rubbish ahhaha. okay i shall go bathe and brush my teeth gently and head to bed. meeting the ugly one at 12! [:

g'night yallllllll. everyone please be happy okay. if yall are not, just think of me and you'll be happy cause you dont have to extract your wisdom tooth. hah hah hah. i think im going crazy from thinking bout my wisdom tooth. im thinking of bringing beardy along, but i think he'll be covered in blood so i guess not. and IM GONNA BRING MY TOOTH TO SCHOOL AND SCARE EVERYONE HAH HAH HAH. okay i was just kidding. i think i should just stop typing now cause im just spouting nonsense. and i think im scaring myself -_-"

okay byebye.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

iPod nano (red)

i want this nano! its super pretty! and its so slim. hahahah its damn hot and nice and cool. i wanttttttttttt [:

hahah anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY UGLY ALLIANCE TAYJIAZHI! hope you had a great and MEMORABLE eighteenth :D











PLEASE DONT KILL ME [:
LOVE YOU HAHAHAH

Sunday, September 07, 2008

My Sunshine, Moonlight & Rainbow





the macarons pandhi bought for me today! :D

[on the phone]
me : i need a girl( singing)
him: woah you need a girl ah
me: yeah
him: ah then dont need me lah (boohoohoo)
me: need! share lah wahlao
him: woah! share somemore! (boooohooohooo)
me: yeah then, so selfish.

hahahah [:

SUNDAY 31st august
dinner with uncle and his girlfriend+family and my brother at katong. katong laksaaaa. then uncle said : "eh i bring you eat the nicest chicken wings ever! you eat already you wont want to eat other chicken wings. its the best" and i happily OKAY! so he drove drove drove to tampines from katong. and i was like "are we going to ikea?" and hes like YUPP! and i just died. HAHAHAH. ikea's chicken wings are nice, thats for sure. but not until like how he described it manz. hahah. meatballs and chickenwings before heading home. [:

MONDAY 1st sept
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BIGGEST RETARD IN THE WORLD : MY MUM.
hahah. monday was spent with pandhi building the highest towers and steadiest structures with wooden blocks, playing bowling with wooden blocks as pins and marbles as the bowling ball, and playing floor-tennis with wooden blocks as the net. hahaha i swear we are damn retarded. with dinner on the table, we just continued playing. and the pingpongball was like flying everywhere, and it dropped into the soup. HAHAH. and then both his maid and him kept laughing at me |: hahah dinner and tv after that. then val sent us to cal's house! where we played mahjong with cal and peter. hahah was quite fun. cal was talking rubbish the whole time -_-" hahahah. left at eleven plus and took a bus home [:

TUESDAY 2nd sept
pandhi came over at around 2 and then we took a cab with my grandma and brother to bishan. had lunch at swensens with my mum to celebrate her birthday. i ordered the banana crumble and asked them to stick a candle in the icecream so its like a cake. cool right. hahah. then mummy was like quite touched and all until she realised that she's paying for it. HAHAHAHA. then she knocked my head and said "woah so nice celebrate for me, in the end i pay for the "cake" myself" HAHAH then as usual i told her to pay first, next time when i work then i pay her back. hahahah. after that, pandhi and i went to walk around junction 8 and i bought a dress. took like a million years to decide between the top or the dress. but listened to the wise words of the pandhi. hahah.

then we sat at the bus stop and waited for a bus to town. we waited for very long and realised that the bus operates till 8am only. HAHHA what jackasses we were lah. so we took a train to dhoby ghaut. after alighting from the train, pandhi decided to piggyback me.he was doing fine until i suddenly said "eh shit i think my back's showing" and then he leaned back so i can get off his back. i dint let go cause i realised that my back wasnt showing and we both fell onto the floor. HAHAH. in the train station know, where there were many many people. hahahah. super embarassing omg hahahha. and when we got out of the mrt station, it was raining monkeys and gorillas. we decided to take a cab to cathay cause it was pouring like maddd. so to decide who will flag the cab, we stood a distance away from the rubbish bin and had a the-loser-who-cant-throw-the-tissue-into-the-bin-flags-the-cab competition. hahahah we always do this kinda shit. and so, i lost. but we dint have to flag a cab cause we were actually already at the taxi stand but we dint realise. ahah and so from dhobyghaut mrt to cathay, the CABFARE WAS AROUND EIGHT BUCKS. omg its the most rip-off cabride ever ever ever. zzz. stupid cabbiez. hate them x infinity plus one. hahah. anyway we caught forgetting sarah marshall! sarah marshall is SUPER HOTTTTTT. damn pretty and hot! the show's pretty okay. just that it was damn sick. -_-" after the movie, we both headed home.[:

WEDNESDAY 3rd sept
woke up at 7. pandhi fetched me from home at about eight then we went to eat breakfast then we went to harbourfront. was supposed to meet warrick to go together but dint in the end. but we ended up bumping into each other on the train! hahah how conincidental! so while getting onto the train to harbourfront, a man appeared behind us and he was so glad to see us. and this man was .... GABRINA. hahaha. poor gabby was like waiting at harbourfront alone and she was on her way back already cause she thought that no one's going for the outing. and she was really thankful that she saw us. hahah.

so we went to harbourfront and met up with my girlfriend! then waited for warrick and yanxun to come. then we went to walk around vivo before meeting up with carey darren cedric ... and many other people but i really cant remember who. so sorry! so to siloso beach we went. beach volleyball was fun! gabby karen carey and i formed the BIST. and we were talking bout tuls(secret) quite a bit. hahah. you know BIST was really good at volleyball. we were like totally winning nicky marc david and daryle. but we decided to let them win in the end so you know, they will not be too sad. HAHHA kiddinggg. the sun was like burning hot and it dint rain at all. hahah really great weather for sentosa! (:

played captains ball after that. everyone played. so there was super alot of people. it was fun! hahah nicole eden del and ariel came after that. GG plus eliza and this other girl(sorry i dont know your name!) played soccer! hahah was quite fun. how bout i scored the first goal! damn cool lah, just that it was an own goal. HAHA cause i thought nicole was my team mate! what trickery. hahah. but i scored like one or two for my team! and my team won! we had like gabby the man, eliza, ariel and del. hahah. super tiring but fun. half the time we were screaming and laughing lah. hahah.

took some photos after that and everyone went to foodrepublic at vivo for dinner. after dinner eden gabby del nicole and i went to the skypark to play! hahah nicky came along and was the photographer for the day. we had much fun splashing around in the water and taking many many cool photos. photoshoot was a success. you should check out our jumpshots and handstand shots. we are really Gorgeous Girls. hahahah. after the photoshoot and some videotaking, we made plans to go over to nicole's place for mahjong. i gave it a miss cause i was supposed to meet jaclyn christina jasmin and viv. so i went off with gabby.

home and then out again. met jaclyn christina jasmin and viv and we went to mos, attica and arena to get the stamps. christina memorised the id number wrongly and got bounced at arena. and the id was confiscated. bastard bouncer really. hopped around the three clubs pretty much but settled at attica most of the time. and my face was hurting cause i was burnt zz. hahah. cabbed home at around 4.

THURSDAY 4th sept
woke up at 4 plus. went over to eliza's condo for 2sd2 potluck party! hahah. we wanted a bbq but we were afraid that it'd rain. but in the end, the weather was pretty fine. hahah. anyway we had 11 people for the party! pretty good attendance! just lacking joanne and charles man! hahah. dinner was fine, food was good (: then all of us walked to keppel island and we played with sparklers! keppel island is beautiful! quiet, pretty, romantic and nice! hahah. we spent so long trying to write 2sd2 with the sparklers but it dint quite work. many people went off after that. leaving yunting marc pakkee kerri jeremy eliza and i. so we went to explore more areas of the island. really pretty place i must say. hahah. class party was fun! another one! (: we're gonna plan a class camp! hahah.

marc dropped me off along the way and i took a bussy bus home [:

FRIDAY 5th sept
pandhi fetched me from my place near evening and we went to haji lane! to pluck for mudpie and bananacrumble with icecream (: and we took many many pictures hahah. walked around bugis after that. he went for cell while i left to meet jaclyn and ben in town. xinwang for dinner before buying the greencarebear keychains! hahah super cuteee. then we took a bus to pandhi's place and he drove us up. and we went to the poolside to play cards and table tennis. hahah quite fun quite fun. mummy came to fetch me at around 2 plus and dropped ben and jaclyn along the way.

and ohyea, my mum cut her hair again. now shes like some punkrockstar -_-" hahah.

ben: woah my godmother damn cool
mummy: oh, this is my godson! my godson also has a very cool look
ben: woah kim, i'll be very happy if my mum is half as cool as your mum

-
[when they were going to get off from the car]

mummy: bye. meet up soon to catch up or have coffee.
ben : yeah sure sure.

and the whole time my face was -_-" hahaha and very obviously my mummy was very happy cause ben was complimenting her. and what have coffee, act like they so tight all! hahah what retardsszxzx.

SATURDAY 6th sept
was supposed to meet pandhi in town and then have dinner at glasshouse. but i refused to get out of my house cause i was being spiteful. hahahah. and i slept the whole day away till like 5 plus when he came over to surprise me![: i was really surprised hahah. i dint expect him to come over at all. hahah. and then he spent a very long time pacifying me cause i refused to talk to him and i refused to go fish&co. HAHAH. in the end, i blamed him cause i dint get to eat my fish&co. HAHAHAH. oh and some stuff he said was really sweet! [: anddd he bought me a box of 12 macarons from canele! thankzzz pandhi pandhi! [:

grandma cooked dinner so we had dinner at my place and i kept blaming him cause i missed my fish&co dinner. hahhaha. and oh yeah, we both thought of going to glasshouse for dinner! hahah telepathy! [: its quite amazing how we think or say the same things sometimes [:

hahah so he played computer with my brother while i played computer myself. and ohyeah, the wind was super strong. so we folded paper aeroplanes and threw them out of the window. HAHAH i stay on the twelfth floor you see. it was raining, so i walked the pandhi to the bus stop with a biggg umbrella.

mummy came home with goodwood park hotel durian mooncake. super good (: and i stocked up on my gummies, and old gold chocolate and my kitkatcookiedough( my ultimate love! ) hahah. and now i have canele's macarons! [: i am growing fatter, im not kidding.

and plans to zouk/butterfactory tonight were cancelled. hope youre feeling better christina teng!

the one week break came and went just like that. i better really start studying or im so damn screwed for a's. hearing people talk about how behind time they are and the amount that they've completed. i know im so dead.

i've only read BNW and CO once. the rest of the 3 books zero times. read through 4 lectures of human geog(population). 8 lectures of physical geog(hydro). read through 80% of bio. and understood the basics of most of the math chapters. this is all ive done since entering AC till now -_-" and its reading through man. its not even memorizing. i am so damn dead for geog and lit i swear. zzz.and this whole holidays, i dint even touch a single page of notes or anything. and the only time i held a pen was to write my name on the paper for ladies night and to write kim's aeroplane on my paper aeroplane -_-"

hahah ohwell whatever. one last day of holiday! i'm gonna enjoy myself (:

goodnight! [:

Friday, September 05, 2008

Bracey's Art [:










all drawn by the pandhi over msn! hahah. ohyeah anyway, pandhi means pig in tamil. hahah.
he's pretty artistic isnt he? [:

bracey! thanks for always being so sweet! (:
you're really the sweetestestest ever :D <3