Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all

It's over, look out below
and I'm wasted, I still taste it
Yeah it's so hard to let go
So breathe in now, and breathe it out
The forecast; A car crash
It's looking like another
Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You crossed your heart, I hope to die

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heyloh (: i just woke up. omg, im motherrrrrrr tired -_-" hahah the past few nights have been spent living like an owl.

lets see.

WETNURSEDEH
woke up pretty late. went to meet jaclyn at clementi. then we went to fareast. dinner at ljs with calamari from chippys. then jasmin came to find us. hahah we were all together but we couldnt let christina know. we walked to heeren after that. shopped around till like 10. then they left and i went to find jz and cel at crown's swensens. SA7 was all dressed in uniform. hahah damn funny. jonah looked damn funny in his ij uni. edmund looked damn damn freaking pretty! like those typical butch. hahah edmund and jeco were in mg uni. ant chee shredded his uniform and he looked quite scary. hahah so after that, i helped them take quite a number of photos. and they just went about the streets shouting trick or treat and happy halloween. got people ask for jonah's number lehhhhh. HAHAHAH. so then about 11 plus almost everyone left.

our original plan was to go trick or treating but we dint. xian didnt join us either. so jz cel and i were like stranded with nothing to do ): then we met feroz and adam and we just hung out for a bit at cine. then we just went home after that. cabbed home at bout 1 plus. was quite a wasted night ]: but still, i had fun. hahha.

THIRSTDEH
woke up quite early. PURPOSELY, WENT OUT OF MY WAY TO GO DOWN TO NGEEANN POLY for JASMIN YEO. to pass her my surf's up card -_-" ass. then after that, i cabbed to jobasan's house. im so broke T_T. so then reached jo's house. then we started cooking. omg, i was making the corn right then she added SO MUCH salt. i think im gonna get kidney failure. ahxzx. so we cooked sausages also. then we just slacked and talked in her room till tingali FINALLY called. so we cabbed down to commonwealth to pick her up and we went to marina south. and know what, we forgot to bring our tuna and bread. i was how sad ): hahahah. so then we reached marina and we got a SHOCKXZ. like most of the field's fenced out for some construction. and theres only a pathetic lil space left, with TALL gross and MANY MUD... so we stood there staring at the field for awhile.. but then we saw the kite shop, so we practically ran there. HAHAH. i bought the paper kite and wrote JOBASAN, TINGALI and my beautiful name on it. hahah. jo and tingting(HAHAHA) shared a pikachu kite. so then we went over to the field and started running around like idiots trying to get the kites up. HAHAH omg, damn funny lah. we were all so muddy and dirty. and jobasan actually broke the string cause she didnt let the kite go when tingali ran. HAHAHAH. shit omg, i cant stop laughing now. damn funny. hahahah. so then this kind old man came over and helped us get out kite up. my paper kite got up there leh. so high somemore. high high into the sky that we almost couldnt see it anymore. how good right we all. HAHAH. okay lah. its the uncle thats good. hahah then there was this group of RETARDED guys who were in jeans all who copied us! then they couldnt get their kites up and nearly cut the string of ours lah. !#$$^# assesss. then they were like "OMG! their kite owns ours" and the uncle dint help them. HAHAH. orbiquuuuek. then yknow what they did. they used the string and like tie all over a few trees then they laugh laugh laugh. then after that, they tied one friend to the tree and asked him to break thru the string then yayyyyyy claps. -_-" damn spastic seriously.

so we just sat there, happily eating our pasta, corn, sausages and waffle crisp. HAHAH shit the freaking funniest thing of the day then happened. jobasan let go of the kite string and she chased after it. then okay. quite funny. THEN, tingali and i were like eating our pasta when suddenly, JOBASAN SPRINTED OFF RIGHT NEXT TO US. HAHAHAHAHA. then tingali and i were like HUH?! SO WE SAW JOBASAN RUNNING AFTER THE KITE STRING AGAIN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG. FREAKINGFUNNY. SO THEN SHE BENT DOWN AND SHE MISSED THE STRING, THEN SHE CONTINUED RUNNING. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. THEN TINGALI AND I WERE LIKE "SIGH, GONE ALREADY" THEN WE CONTINUED EATING OUR PASTA. THEN SUDDENLY, RIGHT BEFORE JO HIT THE CONSTRUCTION FENCES, I SAW HER TUGGING AT SOMETHING. THEN I WAS LIKE "OMG! SHE GOT IT!" HAHAHAHA AND WE BOTH BURST OUT LAUGHING LIKE MAD. SERIOUSLY ITS DAMN FREAKING FUNNY. hahahahahahah. somemore while chasing after the kite, she broke her havaianas. damn poor thing lah. hahah. so we just sat there and continued eating. then a whole bunch of really oldddd doods came to play soccer. like WHAT THE! and they purposely played on the side of the field where we were. how life endangering! hahah. then got this dood he thought that we were retards hanging on to a string that is not connected to anything. after a while then he realised that our kite was up there. so he commented that our kite's like damn high. OF COURSE LAH! hahahaha. so around 7, jo's dad came to fetch us and dropped tingali and i off at raffles city.

tingali and i walked into raffles and we were like WOAH. so many people! hahah so trained to clementi. and I ONCE AGAIN, went out of my way to meet my dearest jewellllll. HELLO JEM TIAN YOU BETTER BE APPRECIATIVE HOR I TELL YOU. that retard needed bio tys so i went to pass it to him. i carried it for the whole day lorxzxzx. but my nice jewel bought me choc (: and he knew that i would most prob not eat it cause i'll keep it in my fridge and it will expire someday. hahah. so he texted me and reminded me not to keep it in the fridge and to eat it. yes, jem i remember. but ive yet to eat it. hahah. so then we talked for abit. and we went back. we were walking to the bus interchange when suddenly jem said "eh your bus" then i was like. ahhh. nevermind later i run to the bus stop at the foot of the interchange. then when i was walking to the bus stop, i realised that my bus just went past me and stopped at the berth. i was like !@$? hahahah and i scolded jem. HAHAHA. no lah never scold. hahah then we said goodbyeee and we went homeee.

came home, got dressed and went out to meet jaclyn and clem. then we bussed to town to buy b3, cake from nydc, for lin. then we went down to esplanade. time passed like a snailllll. so then we waited close to 12 before we walked towards the river. then we were like OHMYSHIT. its so dark we couldnt see shit. we couldnt even tell which black figure was lin. hahahah. so jaclyn and i just lit the candle and walked to the person that we thought was lin. BESTFRIENDS ARE BESTFRIENDSZXZ. we got her correct. hahah she was so touched she teared worxz. she thought that she would be spending her birthday with just one retard, that jasmin. but of course not! we surprised her. hahah we how sweet right. i know i know. hahah. so camwhored after that. before we made our way down to play. it was like.... we couldnt get in. we didnt even dare to try. ahahah. so we cabbed down to cheekys. danced for a bit. and met this dood, ben. apparently, she knows us. SCARY RIGHT. hahah she was like "are yall from crescent? or fairfield? netballers right" hwwoah, not bad eh. we well known :D hahah.

so at about three, we walked to liang court macs. jasmin slept while we just talked. had breakfast. then jaclyn slept. then lin and i shifted over to another table and talkedddd. and left the two idiots sleeping there. HAHAHAH. then a huge bunch of people came in. and all of them went to look at the two idiots. and the two of us just kept laughing. HAHAHAHA. shit damn funny. then after quite a while. they woke up. then lin and i hurriedly ran out of macs. hahah then they came to find us. after that, we walked to clarke quay. and its prettyyy. then we just walked and walked till we reached clarke quay mrt. then we took the first bus home. reached home at like 7.30am and CRASHED.

FLYDEH
woke up pretty late. went to lido to meet sheep and weiarng. had ljs again. then ao came. bought a top from topshop. and i really wanted the rock off, rave on shirt from topman ]: so after that, we went to wisma. then after that, we went back to lido. then we went to cathay. we stood at the ticketing booth for the longest time ever. cause we couldnt decide on what show to watch cause ao watched game plan already. so then, we bought game plan. cause unrest was m18. but then after that, ao managed to borrow some id. and we came up with a plan to get in. so we changed our tickets to unrest at 1.30. and i realised that im so dumb cause i have the nebo card and i dint use it. yes yes, im how smart i know. tsk. so then we went to starbucks. had warm choc cake. and just talked. sheep told me that hes gay and he sounded so convincing i believed him. and i think that it was really cool. hahah. so unrest it was. we got in without using our ids. cause the ticketor is weiarng's and my friend! daryl cai! hahah. so then. the movie is really quite bad. dont watch it. hahah. so after th movie ended. we stood outside cine and stoned for abit before heading off for home.

then sheep messaged me.

he sent me some multimedia message that i couldnt receive i dont know why. hahah. so here. confession.

sheep: and btw im not gay la but you must admit my acting not bad right (:
me: idiot. i really thought you were. cheat me! hate you! go die!
sheep: lol.. sorry (: please dont be angry
me: hahah. no lah. im not angry. no wonder you dint want to promise that youre not gay! liar liar pants on fire! hahah ass.
sheep: lol i swear the best part was when you asked me "what do gays do?" i just died.. lol.. maybe one day i'll find out for you k.

hahah that ass. so reached home at like 4 plus. used the com for abit and crashed. and oh. i was supposed to meet jasmin and jaclyn to surprise christina again but couldnt make it. sorwiieszx. and i wanted to meet josh they all. but didnt also. then i wanted to go club with viv. but also never. hahah. ended up watching unrest !@$# -_-"

SADTHEDEH
woke up late. used the com for abit. got dressed. met jaclyn. OMG i see the FREAKY BANGS GIRLS FOR SO MANY DAYS LAH. hahahahah. so we went to plaza sing. met christina and jasmin. jasmin extra! HAHAHAH. so dinner at glasshouse was changed to dinner at manhatten. the food was alright. not very good. see lah jasmin all your fault. i want my nice calamari, sharkie freeze, clam chowder, nice fish and live band, and sit upstairs at glass house and can take nice pictures outside, YOU SUCK! HAHAH okay kidding lah. shant bully you. i how nice :D hahah at manhatten right. this guy was so freaky lah. hes like trying to help us with anything and gave us a shock that we couldnt stop laughing. hahah. so then after that. we went to the toilet. and while jaclyn was in the toilet, we ran off. HAHAH. then she angry leh! hahah so we RAN TO FIND HER KNOW. she said she was walking to the bus stop. and we ran. after we ate. i think im going to get appendicitis lah! hahah. so we just dashed across the road in front of all the cars. hahah all for you leh jaclyn! HAHAH. so we all went to the bus stop. met desmond they all again. hahah. then jaclyn wanted to board the 106 but we pulled her and locked her leg all. HAHAH damn funny. everyone was looking at us lah. so we took 14. jaclyn went back while jasmin and i went to christina's house. so we ate somemore. and watched some horror show that isnt even scary at all. slept after that. woke up at 6.30am and i went home. came back. used the com for an hour or so. went out at 9 plus. went to two to meet ao to pass her the id and i went back home. -_-" came home and crashed.

so, i just woke up not too long ago. hahah. had damn alot of fun these few days (: (:

i hope all of you are havingggg as much fun (: and and. jz cel tingali warrick and dricee are going to be back from ccaab tomorrowww. yaysss :D NOT THAT I MISS THEM. i just want to hear the stories of the camp. HAHAH.

supposed to go holland nowwww. should i goooo.

taas yall. i am hunggggggryyyyyyy. vehveh hungrrraaayyyy. buaizzxzx

PS: the song lyrics that i post do not always mean something. soooo. please dont assume (:

; fresh as ever, in my mind, and heart